Feeling very depressed

Hey - totally understand where you are coming from! I'm currently wearing 1/5 my wardrobe because the rest of it does not fit me. I hate looking into the mirror and seeing this big old belly that I used to make quick judgements on others years ago.

The one thing that I have found to be the most important thing with dieting is "one day at a time". I stick to my diet 6 days a week and one day on the weekend is mine to eat as I want. I'm not saying a 6000 calorie day (which I can do VERY easily), but if I want that slice of pizza so be it. There are two good reasons to do that (1) You don't mind dieting the other 6 days because you know you will have a day to treat yourself (2) Your metabolism doesn't go into starvation mode which it will if you stay at low calories for a long time.

Another trick is if I eat 6 servings of fruits or vegetables - its hard to eat much else.
Good luck and keep your head up!

I was on this site (under a different user name) before my wedding a few months back and once the wedding was over and done with, I kept making excuses for why I didn't need to continue with my diet and exercise plan. Some of the excuses I came up with include:

I'm just a curvy girl
My husband loves me just the way I am
I can always buy bigger jeans (that movie Eat, Pray, Love poisoned my mind... damn you Julia Roberts!)
I'm not THAT heavy

After awhile. these excuses where no longer making me feel better about myself. It's like all of that self loathing was just building up inside me. Well, like a volcano, It has finally errupted.

I feel like such a fat blob, it's not even funny, My double chin, the muffin top, the flabby, cottage cheese thighs all are staring at me everytime I look in the mirror.

I know that this process is going to be tough, and I am going to have days when I feel down, but today seems so long and knowing that I royally scewed up my calorie goal today has me THISCLOSE to dusting off my book of excuses again.

Girl, it must be today then cause I feel the SAME way! Ugh! It's so much easier to be a "fat girl", but it's also feels so much worse so it's actually NOT "easier". I try to remember that NOTHING tastes as good and being fit FEELS. Don't give up. Set small goals, and the motivation comes from achieving those! You can do it! We both can! Just hang in there. (((HUGS))))

I'm kind of goofy in the respect that I use quotes and songs to associate different people and parts of my life... It's just what I do. I have a list of motivational sayings and quotes that I look to whenever I feel the way that you have just described. Maybe these couple will help you.

Success is not a race, be patient.
Success leads to success.
Success is always a work in progress.
Success doesn't come to you--you go to it.
Success is a journey, not a destination. Focus on the process.
Some people dream about success... while others wake up and work hard at it.
Success is achieved and maintained by those who try-and keep trying.
Everyday is a good day to SUCCEED!
If at first you don't succeed-try, try again


Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future. ~ Deepak Chopra ~


Discouragement

"If you've invested enough effort and energy to get discouraged, you're well on your way to success. Discouragement is a certain weigh station on the road to any worthwhile achievement.
If you know and care enough to be discouraged, you've made considerable progress. Learn what the discouragement has to teach you and then continue moving forward. It may seem as though you'll never make it, but in reality you're already there. Discouragement tempers and hardens you; it does not stop you.
Reflect on your discouragement and you'll discover that it is a result of your commitment. You've already invested your time, your effort, your life. Soon, you'll reap the full reward of that investment. Let discouragement spur you on.
Motivation is born of desire. The stronger the desire for something, the stronger the motivation.
Endeaver to keep the promises we make to ourselves... We deserve to be treated with the same love and respect that we would give to others....." (By CW on bootcamp buddies)


Good luck to you!!!!

Ways to respond to your own excuses:

I'm just a curvy girl - But I want to be a healthy girl.

My husband loves me just the way I am . - But I don't love me just the way I am.

I can always buy bigger jeans - But I don't like how I look and feel in them.

I'm not THAT heavy. - But I am THIS heavy, and it's stopping me from doing the things I want to do.

So you screwed up. Big deal. You know it's not going to be easy, but staying angry at yourself doesn't make the weight drop off quicker. Gain some control over today, go for a walk, clean a room, make wise food choices and log them. Start over tomorrow. You can do that. Good luck.

THIS ^^^^^^