Dealing with anxiety especially when I suffer unnecessarily.

Hello, I feel super dorky and exposed talking about this but I'd rather strangers then my parents or someone I know.

I'm an overly anxious person. It's absolutely ridiculous to be honest but I want to focus on a current new pressing issue that is pathetic but a big fear for me.

My husband and I share a car to get places and I have finals in the morning. Ok, that sounds perfectly normal and has worked out very well the last 2+ years. Things have changed a bit with my husband getting his desired super early morning shift that starts at 4AM and he works about 20 minutes from our house. I'm very happy about this new shift change as I can see him a lot more but have had to embrace my fear of.... the dark!

For some reason I cannot fathom driving around my city at 3AM! And having to walk from my car to the door 10 feet away after I drop him off. I actually refused to give him a ride, let him take the car, and froze my butt off like none other this morning walking to the bus to get a ride to his work where I then took the car to school. All to avoid the dark! I'm afraid for some reason that there's some scary dude out there that will attack me at my most vulnerable.

I don't even live in the ghetto. We live in an upper end area but my house is near a open unfinished culdesac perfect for anyone to come creeping into. So yeah...... Tomorrow I'm dreading having to walk to the bus again in the freezing cold to avoid the dark. When I could just suck it up, risk being mugged, and just take him to work so I can drive straight to school. Oh and I can't walk to school... it's a 45+ minute drive as our community college is out in the boonies.

THANKFULLY I transfer to the University this next semester and we are moving on campus so I can completely avoid the dark. It sucks for now though as I am starting a job soon where I will not be able to ride the bus to pick up the car without being in the dark anyways. It will be on campus so I can walk to it but until then.... I have two weeks to deal with this crap.

I swear, I like make up things to be afraid of LOL but I absolutely am not one to wander around at 4AM! I thought about just leaving the door unlocked as I'm only gone for 30 minutes... and just running in quickly when I get home. My husband also is okay with staying on the phone with me while I drive home (as long as it's enough time before his shift starts). Ugh but all of this is so ridiculous... I just ponder whether I should make things simpler... dress warm... and take the bus. But I can't do that for my new job! Sheesh.

Sorry. I'm sure I'm acting psycho but feel like I need motivation or support about this.