30 Days into my journey on here......

I don't know for sure how much weight I have lost. I don't have a scale here that goes that high and I have to use the one at my Dr.'s office. Last time I was weighed I was 381. I get weighed again on Jan 10. I am anxious to see the results. But I have noticed some changes that are encouraging:

Breakfast: If I had breakfast before it was almost always a package of pop tarts and a Mt. Dew. Now I wake up starving and craving decent food. I eat breakfast every day now.

My stomach is shrinking, or at least feels like it. I get full much faster and hardly finish my lunch or dinner meals. I am eating all day long but still under my calorie goals most of the time. When I do over eat at a meal, like two nights ago, I feel sick.

For over a year I have had some major issues with m bowels. I would have accidents in public and in my car. It was incredibly embarrassing and I actually kept a pair of underwear in my purse with me and pants in my car all the time. One of the first things I would do when I work up was take an Imodium and then keep them in my purse and take one before lunch and sometimes dinner. I have not had one single accident since I changed my eating and exercise habits. In fact, I am almost normal down there which I can't remember the last time that was. :happy:

Sex Life. Sex life has always been good with my husband. But now it is even better. He can now lay on top of me and kiss me without me feeling like I was suffocating from the fat my boobs would push up to my throat. I have more endurance and flexibility. I can't see it but he tells me my belly is smaller and so are my breasts (those I do notice a little bit). I don't constantly cramp up while having sex.

I feel proud when I am under my calorie goals and especially when I work out. Before I could barley do 10 minutes of Jillian's Boost Metabolism. Now I can do 40 minutes, even though I feel like I am going to die, I get it done. I also started the 30 day shred. I can walk further than I used to and stand longer.

I weigh my food. I used to laugh at people who would do that and think how lame. But now I weigh and measure out my food. I am finding that if I eat the actual serving size it usually fills me.

I am drinking a lot more water. I still do one Mt. Dew at dinner. Once in a while I do two, like yesterday, I let my craving get the best of me. But I was drinking literally a 2 liter or more a day including two or three of those large $1 sodas at McDonald's .

I am finding honesty with my husband motivates me. He seriously thought I was under 300 lbs. I am hour glass shaped and most people would not believe I am as big as I am. When I told him my goal was 200 lbs, for now, he didn't understand why. He fought against me thinking I was going extreme. When I told him my real weight it brought him to my reality. Now he fully supports me and is much more encouraging.

My pants are still the same size. I don't know how much, if any, weight I have actually lost, but I do know that this life style change has changed my life and coming on here was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. And yes, for the first time I am doing this for ME not anyone else.