My obsession

HAPage24
HAPage24 Posts: 33 Member
edited October 7 in Health and Weight Loss
Wondering if anyone else is in the same boat that I am. I started my weight loss journey 5 years go at 175lbs. I am down to 120lbs and have been able to maintain my weight for the last 3 years (minus my 9 month pregnancy and a few months to get the baby weight off). I am very conscious of the food I eat (for the most part) and feel that if I'm not I will gain all of my weight back. I do have my moments where I splurge or even the occasional binge, as I have an awful sweet tooth. I have been told several times by my co-workers that I am sick, that I obsess to much over my weight, and just dieting in general. In discussion last night about diet and exercise (a big topic at my house, usually brought up by me) my fiance told me that it drives him insane that I am always figuring my calories before I eat. That I obsess too much over the scale and how much I weigh (I step on the scale everyday at least 5 to 10 times a day. I had him hide the scale on me at one point and searched the entire house looking for it). He is right I am obsessed, but as I said fear that if I don't I will gain weight. I don't want to live the rest of my life monitoring my diet and I dont want to annoy my fiance with this obsession. Anyone else out there like me???

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  • petreebird
    petreebird Posts: 344 Member
    I know exactly how you feel. Excluding my pregnancy weight, my highest weight was 153 and I'm about 5'4" tall. I decided to start dieting and running and slowly got down to 119. I was thrilled. Now I'm at about 124 and feel huge. I also obsess over what I do or do not eat. I've had eating disorder issues in the past and know that I am prone to falling back into the same patterns. I now only allow myself to weight in ONCE per day, in the morning. But I also know that my scale is a bit light and refuse to buy a new one because it might tell me I'm even heavier than the 124 that I now think I am. < obsessive. I track what I eat after I eat it now and can generally look at food and tell how much I can have and what I need to stay away from. I do this quickly in my head so no one knows I'm doing it. Its very easy to become obsessed with your weight especially if you've tried so hard to bring it down. For me it's a mind game and I have learned to play it well and win mostly. I no longer obsess over every calorie but I try to stay conscious of them. I do feel your pain tho. It's taken me years to get to the point where calories aren't always on my mind.
  • EnjoyEverything
    EnjoyEverything Posts: 13 Member
    During my adolescent years, I was the largest kid in school. One day, between grade school and high school, I said to myself, enough is enough. After I got in shape, then in even better shape (drafted into the Army), I never forgot what it was like to be heavy. Sure, there are stretches that the scale goes away, that I let myself loose, but over all, I weigh in each and every morning - use to 4 or 5 times a day.

    Fast forward 35 years. I still weigh in each and every day (just once). My friends and family still think I'm obsessed. I'm single, so when my friends and I we go out for fun and the evening stop over is a bar or fast food place, and I start 'chatting' about how few calories remain - Hmm, I can do just one low cal beer, sorry no nachos for me... they egg me on and say, again, that I'm being ridiculous. But in my mind I think, these guys have no idea what's it's like to not huff and puff through a mile run ... if they could even do one... let alone 13 miles. Or ride a bike 25 miles on a nice summer day.

    So for me, my calorie counting works as well as all the exercise that goes with it. It's my body that I live in, not them. And as for your fiance', I wonder how he's feel if you were 30 lbs heavier. I'm certain he's still love you, but there is something to be said about having an attractive, active partner.

    Like the song says, '.. don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what you've got till it's gone'. I love being healthy.I can control me being healthy, and damn everyone that criticizes me for being so. It's hard work. But it has paid off.

    With that said, being obsessive is not good either. Hold yourself to one scale measurement per day. Quietly count your calories and keep it a little under the cuff. No need to be so in the open about it. But keep on top of it. If it's what works for you, AND you are happy.. continue doing what you are doing.
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