Total Binge

Well yesterday didint start out well with all of that chocolate covered stuff that i grazed on all day. I pretty much figured out how I was going to save the day with a low cal dinner and a little run on the treadmill...but I continued to graze on that junk allllll damn day long, and even then, I went home and did my 2 miles, cooked my low cal meal..and WHAT did I do? Got out the ice cream, and didnt stop until it was gone. I convinced myself that my day was already shot, and that I should just chalk that day up to a free day of messing up and eating what i wanted, so I did. I convinced myself that I deserved it. I finished the ice cream. I am so ashamed and so embarrassed, and feel the need to tell on myself, maybe to just own up to my short comings. I know to just put it behind me and to move on, and that is what I am going to do...and just hope I dont have one of those days for a long long time.

I am determined to do this, and to change my eating habits for good. I know its going to take time, and by all means, I know there will be days when I dont do as well as I plan or hope to and all I can hope to gain from those days is a little bit of extra determination for the days moving forward and hopefully a little bit of knowledge as to why i do it.

I probably ate two days worth of calories yesterday by the time it was all over, maybe more since there was so much chocolate involved, so I am aware that there will be no possible way I will have a loss this week. Thats ok, I am still going to finish my week as strong as I can, and continue to eat as I SHOULD and exercise, and maybe even push myself a bit this weekend. I used to get in 5 miles on Saturday and Sunday, and I have only been doing 2 or maybe 3 once in a blue moon, so I KNOW I am capable.

I guess I just need to vent here, Thanks to anyone who has listened.
You are all awesome here and so much help to me.