feel tired of the whole process

I think you should talk to a doctor about this or perhaps a councilor. Stay strong and positve

I can really relate, last may I was solid with weight loss/exercise/losing and all that. I got down right at 50lbs and just gave up and gained it all back and now i'm back miserable. I have learned and am working on self because I learned that the problem does start from within. Insecurity/self-hatred/low self-esteem etc....it can be anything from A to Z contributing to the feelings that you are dealing with at this time, but i'd definitely talk to somebody and get a professional opinion but don't let them drug you up or what not because it can get worse, so if they do start with the medications and experiementing, do all your research.

you sound like me during my lifetime.. two years ago i had it with my self and decided that enough was enough.. i waved the white flag and accepted the fact that i needed to change my habits and learn to love different foods and a healthier lifestyle all around. before id lose weight and think i could go back to the 'good food' and the lazy lifestyle.. what happened was id gain even more weight back till one day i tipped the scales at 300lbs... sometimes our food problem is an addiction and its like any other addiction like alcohol for instance.. an alcoholic has problems controlling their drinking so when they quit for a while they think they can handle one drink ... then they have two ect . and next thing you know they are more down trodden than they were before.

perhaps you can work with someone and get down to the root cause of why you want to eat things that harm your health. i wish you well with that ..i understand what you are going through

Have you tried meditation or prayer? Meditation helps to clear the mind and create a focus. I turned to prayer when all else failed, down on my knees, crying.... saying, "God, I just can't do this alone anymore." I don't open up to anyone. I was treated for depression but was embarrassed at going to the pharmacy for an antidepressant. So, probably sooner than I should have, I weaned off the medication. However, I found that I gained such a powerful strength in looking to God. If this is not something you believe in, then try the library for books on meditation. You need to start loving you from the inside out. Stay positive. Stay strong. Get the help you need, you owe it to yourself.

Thanks for the support everyone. but im not sure i would feel comfortable talking to someone face to face about my problems. im very shy and personal person, i dont think i could open up to a stranger. i know its a good thing to do but im not sure its something i can do.

I am the same way. Honestly when I was in grad school I went through something similar. I was feeling tired, gained weight, was feeling de-motivated, etc, etc. I went to the doctor thinking something was wrong - he sent me to the school psychiatrist initially to get pills (the psychiatrist and I decided it wasn't pills I needed, just to talk to someone). I am a person who isn't necessarily shy and personal, but someone who doesn't like to talk about their problems or ask for help. It honestly took a LONG time for me to open up, but if you find the right counselor (THIS is key!) it honestly can help. It was several months of weekly visits before I would truly open up to him but it worked. I felt so much better when I had someone neutral to speak to. It's so much easier actually to talk to a stranger about your issues than someone you know.

Now just what has been working for me regarding the process is honestly to change my mindset (not an easy feat) and make an entire lifestyle change. I have yo-yo dieted, tried every fad, even weight watchers which is supposed to be some miracle - it's not. I found I was finding "diet" options for the foods I loved - instead of really trying hard to change the way I think about food. Going to school to be a dietician (being a person who struggles with their weight, I think you would make a fabulous dietician as you could truly relate to the people you will be treating!) you know better than anyone else that whole foods are really what your body needs - the junk is what we want. I'm not saying completely get rid of the junk (I certainly haven't but have to be super careful about when/how much I eat) but 80% of my food choices are completely whole foods and 15% are very minimally processed foods. The remaining 5% are the junk I want on occasion. I don't blame you for being sick of it. It's hard - very, very hard. Maybe right now you aren't quite ready for a full blown lifestyle change - maybe just taking baby steps right now is what you need. Just adding more fruits and veggies and trying to limit your processed foods (they are so addictive so you have to be careful of these because they can cause a full blown binge - they did for me this weekend :-( ) might help you toward the changes you want to see. I'm rooting for you!!!