My dirty secret

Papa_Swearingen · January 2012

I just realized I binge eat and drink. What seemed like a little cheating actually might be a binge eating disorder. Its like I go a week at a time of eating healthy and getting in lots of exercise... as soon as I let myself 'go' I become so destructive. Afterwards, I feel empty (figuratively), unsatisfied, and most of all guilty. My dirty secret is that deep down I truly struggle every second of every day to be comfortable in my own skin. My self-esteem is crap to non-existent. I constantly worry 'what I look like'. I'm not sure what to do... don't really have anyone I can say this too in person (because no one would believe me).

prominence · January 2012

I have a similar issue in that i often dont feel comfortable about how I look. with the good eating and workouts followed by not so healthy food and workout it may just be a short term yoyo effect.

do you feel like after the week of doing good you deserve a treat that turns horrible?

i know with me the big issue was i would do reallygood and then either loose my motivation or similar to you i would just fall off the health wagon.im also a bad procrastinator so i put off the gym lots. It really came down tosaying this is it, it all winding downand hitting rockbottom near 300lbs.

before you do the binge eating,just think about all the hardwork you have done and say that you dont want to ruin the 'streak'. find something that motivates you, pics, ideas, etc and when those cravings come, look at the motivation, then go have something healthy and tasty. get a friend thatis willing to help keep you in line, me and my best friend keep oneach other and now eat right and workout every second night!

best of luck and include more details and im sure the people here can offer more help.

Papa_Swearingen · January 2012

Thanks for getting back to me. I'm surprised that you are the only response. Pretty sad actually.

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