NSV - shopping

Do NOT adjust your television - yes, that was me....shopping for pleasure! For Clothes! For myself!

I ended up going to an outlet mall on my way home today because I really need some new jeans, since my smallest size jeans are getting too big. I went to dress barn, to the womens section, and picked out some 18s. Last time I had bought jeans they were 22s, so I figured, 18 would be safe. I was still feeling gun shy about trying on clothes, since I can't remember the last time I actually tried on the clothes in the store - too embarrassing to take stuff in and have nothing fit, and then have to leave feeling dejected. My M.O. had been to select clothes I thought would be ok for me, purchase them, and then return them if they didn't fit at home.

Anyways...I tried on the bunch of 18s I brought in with me, and they seemed like they might be.... too big? I didn't think that was possible. So.. I decided to grab a pair of 16s (yeah, right!). THEY FIT! I just couldn't believe it. I was feeling so great that I left all the pants behind at the dress barn and went around looking at different stores - and NOT just Dress Barn women and Lane Bryant! I was clothes shopping for FUN! I can't remember the last time I did that. I bought a piece of clothing in a non-fat lady store today, for MYSELF! I bought a dress from the misses section! I did try on a lot of stuff that just didn't fit right, but for once, it did not depress me, I went into it not expecting anything, and in reality, the things that didn't fit were more about body type than about me being too big.

Now, I know my goal is not to reach size 16, but boy - it is a good feeling to get there, it's been a long time.

Thanks for allowing me to gush!