fat is stubborn.

Since middleschool, i was the fat kid. i had the braces and everything. Got made fun of for what i wore because i couldn't fit into regular 'cool' clothes. Come freshman year, I was 200 pounds, not just fat, but more muscle because of all the sports i had played. i said screw this and i started to eat less and go on a diet with my mom. It worked for awhile, but now I see that i've lost weight, but i can't lose the muscle. and the stubborn fat i have won't go away. It's super frustrating because i never feel good enough about myself. It is this ongoing struggle thats been going on for 6 years now. UGH. Hopefully this time i will be able to keep the weight off, and so will my mom. She's doing a different programs, but i don't want to get diabetes or any other health issues because they run in the family. Always worries me. All of my friends are also able to eat whatever they want and not gain a thing, and i'm like okay.. well if i do that I will gain weight so quick it's not even funny. - looking for new buddies maybe in the same boat to go through this journey together.