First binge ever.. feeling pretty bad.

HuzzahForSka · February 2012

I've been on my weight loss journey since December. I'm getting married in September followed by a two week honey moon in Hawaii, so I have a great deal of motivation (which sometimes feels more like stress and pressure, to be totally honest) and I've done relatively well since I got serious.. until today.

I started out my day pretty well and I had a relatively healthy lunch. But then I went out with my fiance and to pick up my final paycheck from where I worked (I quit my job yesterday and am starting a new one on Monday), and on the way my fiance asked me to get him a sandwich from Wendy's.. I was kind of hungry and I decided to get a sandwich too. I didn't feel too bad about that, because I was still within my calorie limit for the day, but then my fiance and I went to look at apartments and on the way home we found a diner. We love diners and haven't seen one since we moved away from Denver a few months ago (we live in a small town now and there isn't really anything out here).. so we stopped for supper at the diner and I ordered a burger. I felt guilty as soon as I took the first bite, but it was my dinner and I was hungry and we can't afford to not at least eat our fill. I didn't finish the burger, but I ate enough of it to feel bad. Well.. afterward we decided to go for a celebratory ice cream, since my fiance starts a new job tomorrow, I start a new one on Monday and my birthday is on Sunday. I knew I shouldn't eat the ice cream, and I got frozen yogurt. It's been a loooong time since I ate so much I got a stomachache.. but it happened tonight.

I just feel terrible. My body is not happy with me, but most importantly, I am not happy with myself. I know that tomorrow is a new day and a chance to start over, and I'm not going to let tonight set me back, but I'm just so disappointed in myself. I know that cheeseburgers are my trigger, and I know better than to even let myself think that it's okay to eat one, but I had a major lapse in judgement today and I feel bad. I even recently had a significant nsv, where I bought new pants and shirts and they were a size smaller than before. How could I sabotage myself so badly when I was so proud of myself just a few days ago. Ugh.

Just needed to get it off my chest so I wouldn't dwell on it.. Could really use some help with motivation to not just give up after today, though. I know it's silly to want to give up, but...

DulceDollie · February 2012

Overeating isn't necessarily the worst thing I can do to myself. It's how I let myself feel afterwards. Guilt is a dangerous thing. If you let it, it will consume you. It fuels the cycle of overeating. Like you said, you've been doing great and you have a lot of motivation. You recognize a trigger food for yourself which is also a good thing. Don't let tonight get in your way now. My sister tells me it would be like running a race and stopping part way through like, "Well, I guess this is it!" Forgive yourself for tonight and move on. You can do this!

Juneliliy · February 2012

Its okay really! We all have those days. And I like you, am getting married, but I am getting Married Next month 29 days from now. So on the bright side, one day wont set you back and you have many more days ahead of you to continue your success! You are doing amazing, and keep up the hard work and dedication. WE are all human and even the best can have a not so good day. What matters is that tomorrow will be a fresh start to better choices, that you already know how to make! I wish you nothing but success!

dtiff · February 2012

I completely understand feeling guilty for doing that, but like you said tomorrow is a new day. Splurging one day won't sabatoge all the hard work you have done and it sounds like you have many reasons to celebrate. Don't be so hard on yourself : ) Good Luck with your new job

michellebd1980 · February 2012

I've been on my weight loss journey since December. I'm getting married in September followed by a two week honey moon in Hawaii, so I have a great deal of motivation (which sometimes feels more like stress and pressure, to be totally honest) and I've done relatively well since I got serious.. until today.

I started out my day pretty well and I had a relatively healthy lunch. But then I went out with my fiance and to pick up my final paycheck from where I worked (I quit my job yesterday and am starting a new one on Monday), and on the way my fiance asked me to get him a sandwich from Wendy's.. I was kind of hungry and I decided to get a sandwich too. I didn't feel too bad about that, because I was still within my calorie limit for the day, but then my fiance and I went to look at apartments and on the way home we found a diner. We love diners and haven't seen one since we moved away from Denver a few months ago (we live in a small town now and there isn't really anything out here).. so we stopped for supper at the diner and I ordered a burger. I felt guilty as soon as I took the first bite, but it was my dinner and I was hungry and we can't afford to not at least eat our fill. I didn't finish the burger, but I ate enough of it to feel bad. Well.. afterward we decided to go for a celebratory ice cream, since my fiance starts a new job tomorrow, I start a new one on Monday and my birthday is on Sunday. I knew I shouldn't eat the ice cream, and I got frozen yogurt. It's been a loooong time since I ate so much I got a stomachache.. but it happened tonight.

I just feel terrible. My body is not happy with me, but most importantly, I am not happy with myself. I know that tomorrow is a new day and a chance to start over, and I'm not going to let tonight set me back, but I'm just so disappointed in myself. I know that cheeseburgers are my trigger, and I know better than to even let myself think that it's okay to eat one, but I had a major lapse in judgement today and I feel bad. I even recently had a significant nsv, where I bought new pants and shirts and they were a size smaller than before. How could I sabotage myself so badly when I was so proud of myself just a few days ago. Ugh.

Just needed to get it off my chest so I wouldn't dwell on it.. Could really use some help with motivation to not just give up after today, though. I know it's silly to want to give up, but...

We all have our off days! Don't let it be so bad that you give up! You're doing great with dropping a size! I have done this before and I just start new the next day and drink a ton of water to flush the bad crap out of my system. Also, you can drink some herbal tea with stevia sweetener! It really helps clean out your body. Hope that helps you!

hansenbret · February 2012

A lot of people suggest scheduling a "cheat day" like once a week where you can eat some things you really enjoy but don't fit in your diet very well. You can't go overboard and need to keep it within reason, but it helps keep you from going way overboard, which can cause you to feel guilty and make it hard to stay on your diet. Regardless, don't beat yourself up for cheating, it happens to us all from time to time. Just get back on that horse and keep going strong!!

tangiesharp · February 2012

You're not alone. I've had days like yours. Believe it or not, you're going to continue to have burgers sometimes. Maybe not everyday, but sometimes. You already said it, but you just have to chalk it up to a bad day and look forward to tomorrow. Maybe increase your exercise this weekend. Definitely drink lots of water tomorrow. You've probably had more sodium than you've had in a while and you need to get that out of our system. You may see the scale go up tomorrow (if you weigh yourself everyday), but realize that it's just the sodium. I doubt you have eaten over 3500 calories which is the number it takes to gain a pound. But most of all, give yourself a break. It will be ok. Just get back on track tomorrow. Good luck!!

najla56 · February 2012

its ok honey! happens, dont worry about it and move on! u can laugh at the cheese burger next week when you step on the scale and see that you have actually reduced weight!!

and Best of luck for monday:)

LeaLeaBunny · February 2012

It will happen every once, all you can do is think positive and tell yourself, "Tomorrow is another day". ♥

Pebble321 · February 2012

One day isn't going to derail all your weight loss plans or wipe out all the effort you've put in.
I think an important part of this process is learning how to cope when you are out and looking your nemesis in the face.
Should you eat a cheeseburger? Maybe, I don't think it's the end of the world.
Do you order something different? That's up to you to decide.

Use this occasion as a chance to reflect on exactlly WHY you aren't happy about today and work out what you could do better another time. Then, put it aside and move on. The key is NOT to use it as an excuse to tell yourself "see, I knew I couldn't do this". A much better message is "well, that wasn't the best choice to make today, I'm going to make better choices tomorrow".

HuzzahForSka · February 2012

Thanks everyone for the support. It's really helped me today.

I've been drinking twice as much water as normal today. I can tell I consumed a LOT of sodium yesterday because I'm just so thirsty.

I decided to do more exercise over the next few days. Just 30-45 minutes extra every day this weekend. I've eaten really well today and i'm proud of myself for not beating myself up today.

My fiance seems to think I need to do a LOT more exercise to recover from my eating yesterday than I think is really necessary, but I know he's just trying to help me. Unfortunately I'm not the kind of person who likes to work out with others around.. so him pushing me to exercise with him every few minutes is really starting to get on my nerves... I'll probably go outside and run around with the soccer ball with him, though. It'll be relatively fun, and he'll feel like he helped. Plus it'll probably relieve some of my anxiety.

Thanks, again, everyone. It's really nice to be able to find support when I really need it the most, and I appreciate it.

First binge ever.. feeling pretty bad.

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