NSV...I finally conquered MYSELF!!

So today was a very HUGE personal NSV! I am a very emotional/stress eater and when things get hard, I always turn to food because I honestly love food and it makes me feel better if only for a few minutes. I have been trying very hard to break this habit and today I had a VERY VERY bad day. It was so bad that I was to the point of tears and nausea...and my initial thought was, "that's it! I'm getting pizza and breadsticks tonight and I'm gonna pig out. I don't care if I gain weight, blah blah blah" I sat there for a while just thinking...arguing with myself I guess...I finally decided that I did NOT need food and it would NOT make me feel any better. It would make me feel worse for doing that to my body for all the wrong reasons. So I made some delicious turkey burgers with turkey bacon and avocado with baked zucchini fries. It was healthy and so satisfying and I feel freaking AMAZING having conquered my self sabotaging tendencies today. I already knew this time around was different, but today was just complete confirmation that I am truly changing on the inside for the better and have control of this. "I" am in control! And surprisingly enough, I was able to let go of a lot of the stress from earlier. I just feel so good right now and am going to try to exercise the rest of the stress away in a bit. Yea me!!

For those of you who do not know me...
I have been on here for about a year and a half. I started at 233, went down to 205 and went back up to 234.8...I just couldn't stay consistent, was burning myself out by being so obsessive and meticulous when I was counting, and just honestly hadn't gotten into the psychological reasons for getting fat at all because I couldn't figure it out. I still haven't really figured it out, but somehow something just clicked and I am in control this time around. I am not counting my calories because I decided I need to lose the weight in a way I can continue into maintenance without effort. I have no intention of counting and measuring and weighing for the rest of my life after reaching my goal weight so it just wasn't feeling like a real lifestyle change...it still felt like a temporary (but long) diet. So now I am eating healthy whole unprocessed foods as much as possible and watching portion sizes. That's it for my diet. I eat what I want and when there is a birthday party. I have some pizza and cake and I still lost a pound that week! I'm burning a minimum of 500 calories 6 days per week and strive for at least 10 cups of water. That's it! It's only been 2.5 weeks, but so far it's working really well for me! Thanks for reading my story and success for today!