I gained alot of it back.

Fat2Fit2Fat2FitAgain
Fat2Fit2Fat2FitAgain Posts: 6
edited November 12 in Health and Weight Loss
I was that girl, the one who swore she would never, ever gain an ounce back or touch a chocolate bar again. I looked amazing, worked out religiously, had an immaculate diet, a total fitness warrior. And then life hit me, stress overtook me and my old demons came crawling back. Exercise took a back burner and binge-eating on garbage everyday turned into the new routine.

I look in the mirror and can't believe it. I was ripped, could see my abs, and had a body covered in lean hard-earned muscle. Now, I've gained 30 pounds back of the 94 I fought so hard to lose. My size 2/4 pants lay forgotten and I can barely fit into a size 10 pants.

I feel like the weight gain has killed the drive I had and reinforced the food addiction I had previous to the losing the weight. I know I could do this again, but can't seem to shake the constant feeling of failure, of no longer being the fit machine I was or being able to wear whatever I wanted.

I want the fit me back, again. I want her back permanently.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated. The defeat is just killing my drive.

Replies

  • bridgie101
    bridgie101 Posts: 817 Member
    I'm doing this thing called 'optifast' at the moment and the perk of it is;

    you don't feel hungry
    I eat as much vegetables as I like
    took a few days to get used to it but feel fine now
    the chocolate bars and coffee bars are filling and quite good tasting.

    I sort of lose control when i'm allowed free food. These bars are great because they say 'hi, here I am, I'm breakfast' or 'hi, this is me, my name is lunch'. I dont' have to think. I don't have to worry and because they're full of vitamins I don't get weird cravings.

    No, this isn't an ad. :D It's just the first diet I've ever been on that hasn't been a nightmare of deprivation, and /or inconvenience as i go crazy working out what food I can take to the office.
  • Princess_Sameen
    Princess_Sameen Posts: 284 Member
    Sorry to hear that! I have old pictures of myself and when i feel to go on a binge look at those and think my gosh I dont want to be that person anymore!

    so grab those old pics and out and use them for motivation! Plus if you never eat chocolate your body will go into overdrive craving for it still include things in your diet, as a little treat.

    hope you get back to your healthy lifestyle
  • 20lbsorless
    20lbsorless Posts: 27
    i'm in the same position. i have 25 lbs to lose but i gained all mine back during and after my pregnancy. i threw away my good habbits and went back to the bad and now i'm fighting the demons again. you have made the first step, you will detour every now and again but when you do dont think i have broken today i will continue say i deserve this treat for this week i will be good after this dont think i've been bad i'll start again tomorrow. tomorrow never comes
  • thelassiemickyjames
    thelassiemickyjames Posts: 197
    Sounds like you need to join OA, or "over-eaters anonymous". Regardless of the name, people of all sizes struggle with food addiction. My mother had food addiction her whole life and yo-yo dieted her way up into the obese category, never knowing why she had no self-control. After being in OA for a over a year she's lost over 100 pounds and has no problem with food anymore. They go deeper than just a diet plan and attack the inner demons that you are talking about and the attack the very things , whether they are feelings or stress or ANYTHING, that cause you to have an addiction in the first place. Millions of people in the united states are over-eaters that suffer from food addiction and hardly anyone knows about OA. Its a life saver! It saved my mom.
  • buttercup922
    buttercup922 Posts: 16
    But you haven't gained it all back.
    Look how much you are still ahead of where you were.
    Your body will remember those workouts before, and you can tackle it again.
    Just start, and within a week, you'll be feeling those good endorphins kick in.
    Do it for YOU!
  • thelassiemickyjames
    thelassiemickyjames Posts: 197
    And let me also say she is TINY now! 5'7 and 140 pounds. She wears skinny jeans and just looks absolutely fantastic.
  • rachellock
    rachellock Posts: 7 Member
    I too can sympathise with you - i said exactly the same - will never do this to myself again. Last year - June - i got to a UK side 8 - legs muscly and lean and toned. Felt fab in all my clothes. Then my darling dad died in July. Since then I have lost all motivation - eating, drinking not exercising - not caring how many calories I consume. I have gained back 17lbs in only 8 months. I am so gutted. I am trying again now to motivate myself to lose what I have gained. It is so so hard to go back to the beginning though and do it all again.
    I'm sure it will happen if you motivate your mind again - i did get a buzz from watching the scales fall and loved buying smaller sized clothes. Maybe that is our motivation??? To get into our summer skirts by June??
  • CallmeSbo
    CallmeSbo Posts: 611 Member
    bump
  • jenilla1
    jenilla1 Posts: 11,118 Member
    ...the one who swore she would never, ever gain an ounce back or touch a chocolate bar again...


    ^ That's your problem. I'm not a big fan of anything that isn't sustainable. To completely eliminate something you love forever is just unreasonable. I eat chocolate most days - love dark chocolate especially because it doesn't take a lot to satisfy the craving - I just fit it in my calories or exercise to earn it. I also eat potato chips when I want to. I just know I need to plan ahead. Another problem I see is that you seem to have lost control and admitted defeat as soon as you started to gain a little. That seems like a common problem. If you gain a little back, just get back on program. Try not to say oh well I failed, might as well go hog-wild.
    So basically, don't deny yourself the little treats in life and get right back up when you stumble a little. Don't be so hard on yourself! Good luck!
This discussion has been closed.

Categories