hi everyone! modivation and venting support needed!!!

April,

Getting on a site like this is one of the remedies that will certainly help you. You're weight loss is a 25% reduction in pounds, and that is nothing to take lightly. It is clear from your post that you have a son and husband, both of whom are very important to you, as you are to them. If necessary, use being there for both of them and spending time with them as motivation. As you pay more attention to what you are eating, and how you are exercising, you will naturally start to feel better. That lifestyle which you exhibit at home will be replicated by your son. If you don't like your current gym, find another one, or go at a different time to your new gym. I find that 5 AM is a good time for people who are serious about exercising, then getting on with their day...and if people want to laugh, let them. What really matters are the people who are important to you.

Stick with this. I gained 60 pounds in a twelve month span. Since then, I've shed about half of that. It may not sound like a lot, but for someone who was very used to eating and drinking whatever I wanted, the 60 pounds was quite a wake up call. What made it worse is that I was in the gym training as I gained the weight. The trainer suggested that I watch my diet, but I never did. And I gained weight. Then one day in July 2011, I went into the gym and said, "I'm ready for the diet plan". He put me on it, and it works. Now, I'm not perfect with it every day - when I do deviate, I enjoy what I eat and drink then get back on the plan the next day.

Find motivation somewhere, but most of all from within. For me, healthy doses of exercise and prayer help too. Maybe that's not for everybody, and to each their own..but it works...Like Churchill so famously said, "never give up, never give up, never give up"!