I'm me, I'm here, and I'd like some friends...

I have struggled with weight my entire life, and although I have "yo-yo'd" a few times, I've never been at what would really be considered a healthy weight. I have never truly either understood, or believed, what it took to lose weight and keep it off, until now. I feel like I have spent 28 years looking for a magic pill to give me the body and life that I have always wanted and until I found it I guess I had just decided to pass my time with eating, lol. Me and my husband struggled with infertility for 3 years and I cant help but feel that it was related to my lifelong obesity. After going through IVF we have been blessed with the most wonderful, perfect baby anyone could ever ask for. And so now, it's not just for me, it's for him. It's for him that I want, and must, do this. It's for him that I dont want to be a fat or lazy Mom who is too tired to do things with him or play with him. I want to be a good role model and example for him, and right now, I am most definitely not. I also want to do this for myself...finally. I want to look in the mirror and see on the outside what I have always seen and felt on the inside. Those two versions of myself have never matched, and it's about time that they do, and ultimately I am the only one who can change it. I have a wonderful husband who supports me and loves me the way that I am, and for that I am forever grateful. When I gave birth to my son I weighed an all-time high of 318 and since then (nearly 11 months) I have lost close to 55 pounds. Ultimately, I would like to weigh 150. I dont even know where that number came from, but it's always been this magical and seemingly untouchable number that's lingered just out of reach for me my entire life. Or a size 10 pants, that seems pretty magical to I would love to find some online friends for mutual support and motivation and if anyone is interested in that, please feel free to add me. I think working together we could hopefully get there twice as fast.