Do you think you will ever be happy?

I think I will be. I'm almost there, but I do realize it will take time. Once I'm finally at where I want I think my confidence will be much higher!

I certainly hope so. This past weekend was the first time any of my family had seen me since I started losing and it was a nice little boost. I certainly look forward to Thanksgiving now (which will be the next time I see my extended family), because by that time I hope to be under 200lbs for the first time since probably middle school.

Happy? Probably. Contented? Definitely not. I like how my body's changing and I smile each time I look into the mirror now, but I cannot get past the feeling that it's not at its best. And I thrive on this.

Awesome keep up the good work. I felt the same when I couldnt fit into a pair of pants adn now I can. I wanted to jump up n down n scream from the roof tops.

Great question! I have no idea. Even when I was at my skinniest, I thought I was heavy and focused on my flaws.

As much as I would like to say yes I do not think it will ever happen. In my entire life I have never been happy with my body. All I can see is my flaws. I am happy to say that I am working on it but also honest enough to say that so far nothing has changed, I see nothing I like about myself in the mirror.

This poor body image has included fighting anorexia to the point I needed hospitalization when in my teen and early 20's. When hospitalized I learned to eat again... and purge and became bulemic, leading to another hospitalization, I have fought with body image problems as long as I can remember and I will probably continue to do so for the rest of my life. I am now 55 and my constant abuse of my body has done its damage.

I have learned to be more responsible in my eating, tracking helps. Nothing so far has helped with the body image problem. Fingers crossed that this time something will change.

I'm sorry you feel this way.
I'm much the same way though. I've always struggled with low self-esteem and my "happiness" on a given day often hinges on how I feel about my body which is rarely positive. Some days are better than others but I also have a difficult time seeing anything but the flaws regardless of what positives might exist. I may never be genuinely happy with my body or even myself but I hope to get to a point of acceptance that it is what it is and hopefully at least be be content with who and what I am.
Hang in there! You might consider seeing a therapist to help you sort things through? I'm currently seeing one . . . sometimes I think it's helping.

I freakin hope so

Yes.

My self-esteem hasn't been low since high school and the reason why it's so high isn't because of weight loss. It's kind of tough to know your self-worth when we constantly compare ourselves to others. That's what I used to do, anyway. But the more time I spent comparing my perceived flaws to someone else's assets, the less time I spent focusing on me. It's a slippery slope. Some people don't feel truly confident in their skin until they're in their 30's, even their 40's. I guess I just lucked out.