am i crazy?

just read a blog post from one of the girls gone strong chicks and it really got me thinking. i'm not overweight or even close to it. i initially wanted to "get healthier" but i tend to be obsessive and neurotic and its happening with food. my relationship with food has gone downhill. i obsess over calories and as a result of trying to control my eating habits (which were very healthy in the first place) , i went the opposite way and i started binging on snacks , something which i'd never done before. and i think about food constantly. after reading this http://www.niashanks.com/blog/beautiful-badass-nutrition-principles
i feel like i can relate to this girl , in that i have poor self control and that trying to control my eating just makes it worse. so after a lot of thought i'm seriously considering giving up the calorie counting. its not good for me. it was because of counting cals i started to binge and have an unhealthy relationship with food. i'm thinking about just going back to my old ways (which were healthier than the way i'm eating now) and of course be mindful of what i eat , but not count it. and also i want to change my strength program. doing the same program every day is starting to feel like a chore , and im thinking of just going into the gym and lifting heavy stuff , doing the exercise i feel like doing that day. i've heard you should always have a plan for going tot he gym , but i dont think it really works for me. for course i'd have a general idea , and spend the same amount of time there every day , but not have all the exercises and reps meticulously planned. im not giving up , its just i've realized that i react poorly to excessive planning/structure in my diet/training and other areas of my life too. i will probably keep this account because it think the information here is great, but i wont log very much. thoughts? comments? anyone that can relate? or am i crazy to do this?