Small Steps - Beating the Drive Thru Addiction

So, I realized about a month ago, that I had not gone a month without eating fast food (through a drive thru, no less), for... well, most of my life. I've been eating fast food on a weekly basis since I was old enough to gum chicken nuggets. My family is notorious for it, and I have a TON of family memories tied around going through drive thrus, good and bad.

And I realized something about myself when I stared down at the mountain of fast food bags on the passenger side floor of my car (that no one was allowed into because it was a horrible, HORRIBLE mess). I realized that I would eat the food and leave the wrappers in my car so my fiance, who is incredibly supportive and trying to help me get healthy, wouldn't see how much I was sabotaging myself.

I had a small panic attack when I realized I have several symptoms of an eating disorder. And I decided, (2 years of therapy under my belt) that I was finally REALLY going to do something about it. And that I finally have the POWER to do something about it.

My goal for the month of April is to go an entire month without going to a fast food restaurant, specifically through drive thrus but also no going into the lobby and ordering a Double Quarter Pounder with cheese and a large fry on a tray and calling it a success.

It's April 23rd, and so far so good. I have had moments when I was tempted. And I'm counting the days until the end of the month. NOT because I'm going to run out May 1st and go through the drive thru again (and let's face it, my stomach would probably turn into a pile of acidic nauseous goo if I did). But because I am so excited that I'm finally following through with a goal.