Down 68pounds...but I need help!

Jenh714
Jenh714 Posts: 14
in Motivation and Support
May 9, 2011 I weighed 198.2lbs. I am a 5' 1" 31yr old female (@ that time). I am now 32 and 68pounds lighter (130.2lbs). I started out just by using MFP. I lost weight just by eating smaller portions and making healthier food choices. After 3 months I decided to start exercising and joined Bally's and hired a GREAT personal trainer which I have continued to use on a regular basis. I went from a tight size 18 in pants and XL in men's shirts to now wearing a slightly loose size 6 in pants and S in woman's shirts.
I should be so happy about this accomplishment but I am not. I feel like I need to lose more weight (10 more pounds) eventhough everyone tells me I should not and I look "fit & toned". I would not be under-weight. When I look at myself in the mirror I still see the almost 200lb woman that I was a year ago. I have developed an intense fear of gaining all of my weight back.
Has anyone else struggled with this problem?
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  • thekimwarren
    thekimwarren Posts: 4
    I think people telling you "you don't need to lose any more weight" is a combination of they're trying to flatter you, and they don't want you to be unhappy with your body, because it means they should be unhappy with theirs. But either way, its unhelpful. I suggest seeking out a friend or co-worker who is smaller (weight wise) than yourself. They tend to be more supportive, because they're less threatened by your goals.

    In the mean time, I'm not losing any weight no matter how little I eat or how much I exercise, and its making me a very, very cranky person. So, I think if you came up to me for support, I'd probably tell you to cram it. So... keep in mind that sometimes people are so self absorbed that they don't even know you're reaching out,
  • bettersusan
    bettersusan Posts: 240 Member
    Yes. I have struggled with the intense fear of gaining you mentioned. I lost 40 pounds and went from size 16 to size 8 or 10. I did keep the weight off for a long time. It's been 2 1/2 years since I started my journey and the 2nd year I did edge up 5 pounds. I edged up a little more last year and I am only down 31-32 pounds now. It IS hard to adjust your head. It IS hard to keep going too. You have to learn about yourself and what your weaknesses are I think. I am wearing 10's now (no 8's) and my favorite jeans look awful because I have a muffin top. :( I keep trying though. I think logging and continuing to try is very key. I wouldn't be up as much as I am, had I really tried more consistantly. I would be in a lot WORSE shape if I had given up though.

    You have done SO great! I am really proud of your accomplishment! I think the trainer is a great idea. Toning up and building muscle will help yiu keep the weight off, even when you have a bad day every now and then. If you are training, your actual weight my be a little higer, but you will look great and be healthy. Just keep doing what you are doing and try to focus on healthy. :) When I was losing, I REALLY slowed down in my weight loss, the lower I went on the scale too. I think that is normal. Just enjoy each day, try to do the right things, and it will happen. You will get there. I know it is hard not to think of your big when you have for so long. If you are wearing size 6 though, you are SMALL! Sometimes seeing yourself in a candid picture as a small person...not realizing it was you, opens your eyes. I felt so big too. I saw a picture of myself, someone had taken from the back. I saw a very slim girl. Then I reccognized the jeans. It was me! That opened my eyes a little. We are all harder on ourselves than other people.

    You hang in there! I'm so happy for you!!

    -Susan

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