does anyone understand me?!?

Your never alone, and you need to remember different friends are there for different reasons.Let the people on here be there for you for your weight loss. Remember that you have to love yourself before you can let somebody else love you, and there is somebody out there that will love you for YOU.

I understand! Your friends don't understand cause they haven't gone through what you are going through right now. People here know how you feel cause we all been through it. When I feel like I don't have motivation hubby makes me get up and get my walk in :P My hubby and my mom are the only ones that support me in real life.

1st, you are so very lovely and need to stop saying you are the "fat, ugly" girl because that is not what I see!!! 2nd, as many people have said, you are here and trying, so you are not alone. We are all here for one reason or another! I am a mom of 2 who is very short and holds weight very easily. I understand how you feel! I have struggled with my weight for years. I also go to school and work. Lots of irons in my fire, so I am the last person I pay attention to. Big hugs and I am here for you!

You have friends on here who care about you! Please join the groups and keep up the good work. You are so worth it!

you believe whatever you feed yourself. feed yourself good things, and encourage yourself. pity parties amount to absolutely nothing. i can understand thinking you'll be alone, but in time. trust me, you don't want just anyone nor do you want to settle b/c then you'll be really unhappy. don't expect anyone to love you more than you love yourself either, it just won't work. you're here working on yourself, and that's half the battle. you are a very pretty girl, and that's not just "talk" don't worry about your friends and their lives, you're your own person, and must live for yourself. their situations are their own. just b/c they're in relationships doesn't say anything good/bad about you as a person. we all binge eat, well i do, still do 70pounds later. sometimes i don't exercise, go figure. but guess what? you're LEARNING to undo bad habits, and that takes TIME, b/c it is a process you'll be fine. please excuse the abuse of commas, haha. :laugh:

First of all, from your photos, you are a beautiful girl. You appear to be overweight, but are still very attractive. In my opinion, your problem is more with your self-concept and lack of self-esteem than with your appearance. I was fortunate to be thin as a child, teen, and young adult. I didn't start gaining until I was in my 30's... But, what it comes down to is: you are struggling with your weight, and I get that... Many of us do. That is why we are here.

You can do this. It will be tough at times, but certainly not as tough as feeling terrible about yourself and living with those self-destructive thoughts.

My advice: Take each day at a time, each meal at a time, and soon you will be seeing results. Try to stay within the parameters MFP sets for you, or close to them each day.

I didn't think I would be able to do this. I knew that I'd be able to lose some, but thought I'd plateau along the way and lose my motivation. I've only had 2 weeks that I didn't see real progress - since 2/1/2012. I've lost 27 pounds - which has me in a healthy BMI range. I've surpassed my original goal weight and am working down to a comfort cushion zone. I'd like to have a healthier shape (less belly fat)... I've gone down from nearly a size 14 pants to a size 8 pants. Most of my loss is attributed to modifying my eating. I exercise a few times each week - but am not hard core. I exercise primarly so that I can eat more. If I'm hungry, know I'll be eating out, or have gone over for the day - I try to correct it with exercise to earn more calories.

You are free to look at my diary - it is open to the public.

Some of the things that I've read since being here which resonate with me are:
"Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels" - and - "Everything you put into your mouth will put you one step closer or one step further away from your goal."

You are in control of your destiny, you are in control of what you eat. Wise decisions can last a lifetime. You have a whole lifetime ahead of you. You are young. You can do this!!!

You are not alone! You are here and you have us. You also have your wonderful self who wants to help YOU!

Do what some of the others said and search the forums. Add some motivating friends from here. It should be easy to find others who share your same issues. I'm one of them! Add me if you'd like. I'd love to help motivate you!
Start moving. I finally 'saw the light' and just started walking one day. Actually it was Christmas Eve last year! I started out walking at a comfortable pace, one I knew I'd enjoy and want to do again. Pretty much what most would call a 'stroll'. The next day, I walked again. Then I started walking longer, then even longer, then a bit faster. It wasn't easy sometimes but it didn't take long to start seeing results! My clothes fit better, it was easier to walk upstairs, easier to tie my shoes, etc., etc. Eventually I changed my diet by replacing unhealthy, high calorie foods with healthier and even better tasting foods!
Since I started my first little walk in Dec. 2011, I have lost 33lbs and inches and inches of fat off my body. I feel so much happier and guess what? Now I'm not the fattest girl in the crowd. I can't say I have more confidence when I go out, because I always felt confident, but I do have more fun!

YOU CAN DO THIS! <big hugs>

what would make me feel happy is looking at myself in the mirror and liking what i see... fitting into a crowd and not being the enourmous one in the group... i would love the day when my smile isnt fake! when i have a good clean eating day, with working out i am happy... but for some reason something in my body not sure what hinders me from doing so... i know i need to stand above it!

thank you guys soooooo much for ur responses they mean the world to me!!

You are not alone, I'm also used to think about that & I have been in your shoes for a looong time before I get into this stage where I am right now.

I don't have friends here in real life & even my family doesn't help me either & the only one that truly supports me is my boyfriend who is thousand miles away from me right now. This is also the reason why I keep sticking to MFP aside from tracking my food & exercise for maintenance. Also like what other posters say, you're beautiful & never say that "I'm fat & ugly thing", it won't do you any good. And as for meeting somebody, never rush into things even if you did lose the weight. You'll encounter somebody along the way when the right time comes. That somebody who will love you for who you are regardless of your size.

You can totally do this. There is NOTHING wrong with taking it slow,especially during stressful times like finals. Bit by bit, day by day, no rush, just one step at a time. :flowerforyou:

The fact that you are on here trying means you are STRONG! You are right, they probably don't understand what you are going through, but there are people here who do understand. You are not alone!!! Just take it a day at a time, and trust me, you are beautiful!

^This.

I have been struggling my entire life and I am blessed to have friends who told me that I was beautiful regardless, but to me that just meant that they had no idea how hard it was for me. To this day, my friends on here are still some of the most intimate; I say that because my closet purging, lying about food intake, obsessive exercise and lack of motivation have been told ONLY to them and no one in my "real life". My friends on here are why I feel able and completely capable of making my life better every single day. Get a group of friends and be yourself. Don't be ashamed to be scared or depressed. It's all part of the game, at least it was for me. Feel free to add me or message any time that you ever need anything.
You can do this!