I need friends

My name is Jules , I am 47 , mum of 2 Teens and wife of 4 years to my honey. When we married I was 4 stone lighter but Life love serious illness and stopping smoking all led to weight gain and an embarassing lack of fitness! I don't want to be fat and fifty . I want to be fit and fifty! My love is 10 years younger, I don't want him to look at girls 20 years my junior and think what if! Most if all I want to feel proud to be me!