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Hello.

My name is Sam, and I'm tired of being overweight.

It's been a long struggle since puberty, and I've only been able to watch myself get heavier and heavier. Recently, my father (who is 52 years old) had his heart stop, due to him being overweight. He was dead for three minutes (thankfully, he's back), but just the fact that it happened to someone essentially scared me straight. I'm worried for my health, as diabetes, heart disease, and more run in my family. I want to live a long life, and I want to be healthy.

I've been constantly teased by other girls about my weight for years. I just recently graduated from college, and even living in a dorm with women who are supposedly grown up still mocked me. I have an eating disorder, which makes things doubly hard; compulsive overeating disorder. I eat when I experience any mood (good or bad, honestly), and I have little control over it. I've spent months working to get it under control, and I've just barely managed to contain it (if anyone has any idea how to help me with this, I'd be ever so grateful).

I want to work hard and get to be what would be considered a good weight for me. My doctor suggested 150 pounds because of my bone structure (I have extremely thick bones and a wide frame, and if I lost too much, I'd look incredibly unhealthy), and honestly, I'd be happy just to get below 200. I just hit my peak of 260 pounds since coming back home from school, and I want to spend this summer getting my butt into gear. I'm preparing to move to the United Kingdom to get married, and I want to look my best, be my best, and know that I'll have a good and long life to be able to love and cherish any children.

Sorry if this is so long. I am mostly hoping to find someone who can help me to keep on my target, to keep on my goals. I'd certainly help back, and I'd love to make some friends in the progress who know what my struggle is like.