Just need an ear.

i know how you feel, i was in your situation not long ago. all the change with graduating, moving on with life, its super tough and takes a huge emotional toll! are you going away for college?

i know its a lot of change, maybe this self-loathing is because right now, you feel like your own self is the only thing you have control over? a few months back, i had an eating issue and i stopped eating because i felt like i had some control. but at the end of the day you need to remember that you only get one body, one person. once i realized this i decided that i was going to force myself to treat myself with respect, even if it was hard.

i feel like I'm not making any sense and i really want to help you see through this >< you need to be strong, you have so so much of your life waiting for you to live! don't focus on your imperfections, what also helped for me was picturing myself 5 years from now, where i want to be at...maybe try channeling your energy into a different activity of some sort...i started kickboxing and that really helped me...

i really hope you feel better and feel free to add me or message me if you want to vent more! you came to the right place, MFP is an amazing community

I am so sorry you are struggling right now. It doesn't seem like it but life after high school is so very different from high school.
I think it is awful that the school counselor blew you off. Obviously you need some help. I believe that everyone is special & whether or not you believe it this includes you.

Please print what you have written here & show it to an adult you feel you can trust. Best would be mom & dad. They can work with your physician to rule out any medical reason for your feelings. Teen years are so hard because your body/mind go through so many changes. Lots of chemical things going on that could be off just a little & make you feel awful. They could also get you in touch with a counselor who will help you.

If you don't feel you can show your parents then maybe a trusted teacher or relative. I know if you were my child I would want you to come to me with this.

Wishing the best for you.

your too young to be doing that crap, I am a negative person, the glass is half empty, all my friends hate me and use me and blah blah, pint being, if you want something so bad you have to do it, you have to change it, you need to do it now.
So look in the mirror, what dont you like?
Go have a make over, find something your not stupid at and ace it, and dont say your stupid at everything because thats just retarted. Cooking? gardening? exercise?
Redistract yourself? I get depressed I eat, im not medicated,cos i dont need it, i know whats in my head and i wouldnt hurt myself because im not one for pain, and hurting myself would get me where?
I pick my fat *kitten* off the ground and i remotivate myself, i fail i get back up, i fail and i get back up.
i was a 95 kilo brunett, now im a 78 kilo blonde, i look better as a blonde, i love myself as a blonde, but im not happy with my body, i know im working it and time will tell, i pick programs that promise me and its upto me to kick my own *kitten*.
Feel free to add me and ill tell you how it is b4 you hack urself. What ever floats your boat. Your only as good as you let youself be.
I am a ***** at heart, had a lot of practice being treated like sh..it, only i could change me for the better, i cant relate to self harm, i encourage and like encouragment and having a support network is important but you have to want to change for it to benefit you how you want it to.

Be prepared too with this topic that some people will not understand self-injury and you may end up feeling bad about some of the responses. That's why it is important to talk to someone who will understand, because a lot of people do not. There are many reasons people self-injure, and the right person to help you will be able to understand your reasons and help you with the cause of them as well as what to do instead when you feel bad.

Feel free to add me if you like, if you are looking for support.

Hi Sweetie - Did you talk to your mom? I think that is a great place to start. From what you wrote, I think you are struggling with depression, and if so, there is so much help out there for you! You need to speak to a psychologist, get some talk therapy going, and possibly get on some medication to help you through this period. No one deserves to feel this way! Truly, this is not a normal feeling and I hope you will get the help you deserve. You have your whole life ahead of you. Hugs to you!!

Try a friend or a family friend. When I was in high school, I had a friend who tried to commit suicide and couldn't bring herself to tell her parents. She called and told me. We had a better experience with a school counselor who was able to help. Find someone that you trust and ask them to help you. We all here want to help but you really need one on one assistance. Do it for yourself because you want to feel better.

I am sorry . Your problems are not stupid or trivial, that is all relative. I have battled depression and know how it feels to be sucked back into that darkness. Very often, these things are chemical and no, a pill cannot fix things but it can help you keep it in perspective. We all have our battles, our own demons. You are not alone though I certainly know it feels that way.

I'm so sorry that you're struggling with so much and that you've beaten yourself up about it and hurt yourself, but you've made the first step before to try and talk to someone (although not really helpful) and here you are again. DO NOT EVER APOLOGIZE FOR HOW YOU FEEL. Your feelings are raw and they're real. Don't be sorry.

At least you realize that you are in a bad space and you need to make a change ... I will say that IT DOES GET BETTER! Is there anything you really are passionate about? An activity or anything to throw your focus into?

I would just encourage you to keep reaching out to try and talk to someone. When the first person doesn't answer, keep knocking down doors for help. Talk to your mom if you can or a best friend...maybe a pastor, just find someone to talk to.

Here in Canada we have Kids Help Phone, check it out. http://kidshelpphone.ca/Teens/Home.aspx
I know you live in the USA, but I'm sure if you call they're not going to ask where you are from ... there's also help online too where you can talk to someone. It's free and it's 24 hours a day, 7 days a week - confidential and it's anonymous. It's for anyone 20 years of age and younger. Maybe they have something similar in the USA.

Good luck and hang in there and add me if you'd like!
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Sweetheart.

You are not any of those terrible things, you are beautiful, wonderful human being because ALL people are. But you DO need to find a doctor, and a real psychologist (that counselor is a freaking idiot).

What you are going through is serious, and unfortunately common. I was in a dark place as well for too long in my life. I went through counseling and was on depression/anxiety meds for awhile afterwards and I am SO GLAD I did. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. :flowerforyou:

Sometimes brain gets sick, and once they get in their patterns, they are REALLY hard to break, nearly impossible to do by yourself.

PLEASE seek help.

I cut myself a bit when I was about that age - it was sort of like a tally for the nights when I felt the absolute worst and it was easier to have the pain on the outside instead of the inside. I hope you csan stop soon.
I think your school counsellor has been numbed by the spoilt brats who whinge about stupid things that I seem to see these days. Please keep looking for someone to help! I went to my doctor, did a little paper test thingie and he sent me to a counsellor that I didn't have to pay for. It was the biggest and best step I ever took (even if it did take me about 11 years!)
You are not worthless or any of the things you ahve said - you matter and you are not alone.

I'm 18 years old. I'm graduating in a week. Things are moving very quickly and changing a lot... more than I thought was possible. I'm okay with all of that, that isn't the issue.. I need to speak up, and I need a little support. I hope this is okay to say.

I've been a self harming for seven months. I hate myself. I am the world's ugliest, stupidest, most moronic fool and I can't stand to live in my body. I'm not fishing for compliments, I just really want to disappear. I've felt like this for the past year and a half, and waiting for it to let up isn't really very effective. I spoke to a counselor at my high school, who kind of just waved it off and told me I'd be fine if I just smiled more. I want to be happy, I want to be glad I'm alive and feel good about life. What happened to me? This isn't me.

I came to this site in January when I decided I'd rather run than cut, and I wanted to change my outlook; I got so sick of hating myself. It worked for a little while... the distraction was nice. But I feel like I'm losing it. I'm so sorry to rant to all of you and whine about my stupid teenage problems, but I'm begging for support. This community is so helpful and uplifting, I just want to be a part of it. I'm sorry if this post bothers anyone, it wasn't my intention to be offensive.

I was like that when I was in high school as well, it wasn't that long ago, (6 years?) and I was depressed, I felt the only way to feel better and have control was to self harm. It wasn't right, and at the time I didn't see how negatively it was effecting my every day life. I have scars all along my arms because of it and before, it used to bother me, but now I have let go. Hopefully you can make a Dr appointment to talk about this. A counselor at school is going to do nothing. I can tell you from experience. I had to find other ways to deal, I wrote poems and wrote in a journal.
Depression hit me hard again, I had a baby 2 years ago, and all was fine until she was 9 months old and my life came shattering down and I spiraled into a deep depression, to the point where I was severely depressed, I noticed when I started exercising more I felt so much better about myself... Hopefully you can get back to running or some other type of exercise to start feeling better, but I do recommend you see a dr.
Don't think that your issues are just "silly teen" issues. They aren't, you matter, your problems matter, and there are people out there who can help you deal....
*hugs*

I know exactly how you feel. That is all.

In addition to talking to someone and getting medical help, try focusing on helping someone else or volunteering in an animal shelter or something like that. I suffer from seasonal affective disorder in the winter time, and I know that it can help me to focus my time and attention off of myself for a while.

I can't offer any words of advice unfortunately because I haven't solved my problems yet...but I am doing the same things to myself
I hate myself because I'm 23 and everyone I know is getting married, buying houses and living fantastic lives....and I live with my sister in an apartment my parents pay for...
I feel like an epic loser and I don't know why I feel this way about myself but you're not alone