Struggling to stay on track.

It feels like an endless cycle..I stay on track and log everything and its good for a week or two..then I get bored and take a break which can end up being days. I'm really struggling, I want my life, health, and body back..but I'm stuck with all these emotions, cravings..sometimes I feel like its easier with a lot of people..but maybe knowing I'm not the only one might help and what you do that finds it helpful...sometimes I just feel fat, and I was meant to stay that way, and I can't do it no matter how bad I want it or try.

I'm sorry if im whining, complaining..I just need to vent..so please..no insulting comments or anything like that..is all I ask. I just need a ear..someone who really understands..a buddy..Add me if you wish..I need more friends in my position.