RENEWED IN YOU !!!

So many things are happening right now. I feel renewed. Spiratually, emotionally , and physically. I have been working on giving up control of everything. I have tried to be the mom, manager, friend, organizer, leader. I have reached the point that I realize my kids are grown and God has contol of them. I just gave it to him. Don't get me wrong I'm still there but in a supportive way. I plan on finishing my teachings to them through the example of how I live for lord, myself, and then my husband.

Speaking of my husband. I have always thought being a loving wife meant handling as much as I could, making the decisdons, handling the finances, handling the job and home. I forgot in there to let him lead.

I apologized the other day for that to him. I also asked him to please take the lead. I wanted to be his copilot. It really touched him. I think he stepped aside so many times in trying to make me happy. I have always been in control. I was on my own at 18 after my mother died of cancer at 38. Out in the world surviving if you called it that. I think because of that I just naturally was my own leader and then leader of my marriage and then the family. Nope not anymore apron strings and pants belt have snapped.

We both know the best example we can give our three sons and daughter is that it is never to late to change. I am actually comfortable with this. I am excited by this. My husband too. I led the first 27 years of the marriage he's eager to lead the next 27 years.

It is more a partnership but even in every partnership there is one that tends to be a leader. Well honey it's yours now!

I feel very spiritually lead of this. My husband I think is a little afraid of my new attitude but I think he is also excited by it and it is making him think some too.

I have always been terrified as a passanger and my husband has always let me drive. I will tell you how much I don't have to have the control now. I pulled over the other day and asked my son who is learning to drive to take over. We drove all around in the country and on the highway for 45 minutes. This shocked my entire family and amazed everyone that I didn't panic, Jump or try to put on the passenger break at all. they had a hard time believing it.

God worked a miracle in me the other day and I think that is why I can write this today. I gave up control of everything that I did NOT have to have control over and guess what I found the ENERGY and ABILITY to control the things I need to for me.

Don't know if any of this makes sense to anyone else but boy is it a freeing thing for me. I gave God teh control and you know what he was just waiting for me to. I think they call that FAITH.

I CAN BREATH for the first time in years and the constant knot in the pit of my stomach s gone.

Thank you lord for beng patient to let me learn this. Hope this can help someone else. If you see yourself in this. Think Pray and decide. What are you taking on that is interferring with you being the best you can for you. Dedide can someone else handle that, SHOULD someone else handle that, Or can you even just let it go completely. When you start thinking that way. It's amazing how much time you might have for yourself.

It's okay !!! Really it is to put your self first after GOD. God is first without him the rest can't happen the way he intended. He truly wants us to be happy and blessed. But you are next. Your important too.

Take care. Be well and be blessed.