I hate being the largest person I know

Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Your whole post screams PLEASE DONT HATE ME

No one does. You seem to dislike yourself though so get over that.

You have made great strides already and yeah it can be hard. I am a single father of two kids, with no family support and work 60 hours a week and yes I know it can be hard. Turn your excuses into reasons to do it. You have a child so its difficult...Becomes you have a child so you owe it to them to be around when they are 10, 20, 30, 40...And if you have as much faith in yourself as the people on here clearly do you will do it no problem.

Start realising how well you have done already, stop thinking everyone is judging you negatively and get on with it

Good luck.

I am in the same boat!! I want to have another baby but not be high risk like I was with my first pregnancy!! You can do it!

Hang in there and take one day at a time.

I know I don't know you but my heart hurts reading your post. When my husband and I first started dating I was in the 150-160 range (I'm 5'3"). It got really hard to get on the scale after the birth of my first daughter. I never managed to lose all the weight before I got pregnant with my second. I had my second girl in April of 2011, I left the hospital weighing 202. About a month later my husband's work started a 8 week weightloss challenge I was down to 197. I was so upset with the way I looked it made me uncomftable to go out with my friends. I had the same reaction the first time I saw the obese label, I didn't see myself that way in my head. I wanted to cry when I saw that - it really does feel unbelievable to see that attached to your name.

Over the past year I have managed to lose 53 pounds. I have to keep reminding myself it's not going to come off overnight because I didn't gain it overnight. Just make sure you are eating the correct calories you need to lose, and not less. I've been working with my local doctor and she taught me that I wasn't eating enough. I know it sounds weird to eat more, but I found I did lose more when I ate correctly. I've been using the diabetic meal plan (I'm not diabetic). I don't see it as a diet but a lifestyle change because you can still eat the same foods just in a different way. If you aren't maybe you could work with your family doctor or dietician to help you - the support you get from them is great! I have monthly weigh-ins and that helps keep me on track without have the prying eyes of the group weightloss meetings. I am now 11 pounds from my goal weight of 135! I would never have thought I would have gotten to this point a year ago. Maybe keep a note somewhere or a daily reminder on your phone to give yourself some motivation to keep going - to remember YOU ARE WORTH IT!

I also know how you feel. All of my friends are much smaller than I am and I love them but sometimes they say hurtful things without realizing it. Like when they talk about how big their butt is when I am standing next to them weighing 100 lbs more. I don't think they realize how that makes me feel. I always thought that if I was going to have my own blog I would call it "The Elephant in the Room". Because that is how I feel sometimes when I am constantly the biggest one in the room. Always being aware of my size. Should I let people see me eat? Can I fit into that booth? Oh no, I have to have somebody push their chair in so I can get around them. There are no chairs to sit in and everyone is sitting on the floor and I don't want people to see me trying to get up. There are so many things that I can go on about. I am working on my weight and to some degree I am thankful for the lessons I have learned being fat. My heart breaks for people who are struggling with a major weight problem. I know it is way more than they are just eating too much. I see someone who is hurting. The mind and heart really need to be healed to truly make a healthy whole person.