Please reassure me I'm okay

peachyxoxoxo
peachyxoxoxo Posts: 1,178 Member
edited December 2024 in Motivation and Support
I used to binge eat and was bulimic. So far I'm 16 days binge/purge free. Tonight I was eating some chocolate chips and had a bunch right out of the bag... definitley more than I needed. Probably 1/3 - 1/2 cup total. I feel so gross and feel like I've blown it although I know it's not a lot compared to how I've binged in the past. I guess it just felt WAY too close to binge territory for me to be okay with it. Please tell me I'm fine and that I didn't just completely mess things up? I'm worried if I keep doing things like this and telling myself, "oh, it's fine," eventually I'll relapse entirely.

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  • BeantownSooner
    BeantownSooner Posts: 254
    There are 3,500 calories in a pound. Unless you ate an entire pallet of them you're just fine. Just eat a couple of hundred less over the next couple of days and you'll never remember it. I had 3 hot dogs on Tuesday then ate a lighter on Wednesday.
  • BarbBlue
    BarbBlue Posts: 251
    Don't get down. A new day starts tomorrow. I have bad days too, once a new day is started I forget about the screw up the day before. You will too!
  • peachyxoxoxo
    peachyxoxoxo Posts: 1,178 Member
    Yeah I'm a nutrition major so trust me, I'm the first person to remind other people about how 1 lb = 3500 kcal, haha.

    It's just the behavior that concerns me.
  • LovingLisa2012
    LovingLisa2012 Posts: 775 Member
    well 1st off, congrats on being 16 days binge/purge free ..

    you are going to be ok, maybe go take a nice warm soak in the tub, or some other activty you like (to get your mind off things)

    you are going to be ok hun, you are so much stronger than you realize ( hey you came here for help, that proves it)

    :flowerforyou:
  • bulbadoof
    bulbadoof Posts: 1,058 Member
    It's very hard to break habits cold turkey. It's okay to slip up every now and then. You know that you're improving, and you know from how you feel how badly you want to keep improving, so while I can't say with any realistic certainty that it won't ever happen again, I can definitely reassure you that if it does happen again, it'll be even smaller than this time. If it takes a couple slip-ups to get to the point of an indulgence being reasonably portioned, that's fine! You're moving forward, not backward. Just because you trip doesn't mean you can't get up and keep going. :flowerforyou:
  • lcn1220
    lcn1220 Posts: 124 Member
    It's just the behavior that concerns me.

    Short circuit that behavior by measuring out what you intended to eat, put the bag away, take your stuff and get out of the kitchen.

    <--used to have a bad habit of snacking out of the bag. :( Now when I feel like body needs extra calories, I just make a small 200 cal plate (some protein, the thing I want, some veggies) and gtfo the kitchen. It keeps me from annihilating those pita chips or whatever else that might be calling my name.
  • peachyxoxoxo
    peachyxoxoxo Posts: 1,178 Member
    I usually do portion out what I want and then go eat it elsewhere but the power was out tonight so I stayed at the kitchen table to eat because it had the best light. Maybe it was just a slip up based on the situation. Recently I've had no trouble controlling my portions aside from tonight.
  • austindog2
    austindog2 Posts: 128
    I think that the fact that you binged a little bit, immediately realized it was wrong, and came here to seek help already shows that you've changed. You're in the recovery mindset and you honestly want to put your health first.

    Just remind yourself that it was just.one.day. Press the reset button tomorrow - eat a healthy breakfast, go for a walk, remind yourself that you're strong and that you can do it!! Keep up the good work :)
  • akivi73
    akivi73 Posts: 27
    Congrats on your 16days! You will be fine and, yes, you are okay! I've done the binge/purge thing although I've never been diagnosed with an eating disorder (it's never been a consistent habit). I understand how awful it can feel after eating too much, but it's just one instance and you can choose to eat healthier or be more aware of what you eat in the future. There are always set-backs when you are trying to make big changes.

    Also, here is a site that's helped me with the b/p urges recently: http://www.bulimiahelp.org.
  • haylz247
    haylz247 Posts: 435
    There is nothing wrong with you at all. We all slip up at some point! I'm trying SO hard not to keep eating all day but i just take a second, remind myself why i'm doing this and say no. I know it's not easy but you're doing so well, so you should be proud of yourself. Allow yourself a treat now and again :)
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