At my wits end, Please help me!

You are not eating enough for that much exercise.

If you "can't resist" the scale, throw it out! Don't let it's numbers rule your thoughts.

Just from what I've been learning, and not from personal experience, I'd say maybe you need to increase your calories.

Someone once asked me - what's more important, the number on the scale or how your body looks? When I was asked that everything changed for me...I realized that I would be freaking HAPPY if I weighed 200 pounds, but was a size 2. That was enough to get me away from the scale forever and just concentrate on dropping inches. If you think about it, no one will ever no how much you weigh, but they will SEE how small you are ;0) Good luck and stay positive - you're awesome :0)

You are not eating enough for that much exercise.

^^^This! Per your diary, you are eating around 1600, and then burning 800-1000....net is 600-800! If you're working that hard, you need to eat to fuel your body.

I hate mu body, when will all of this be over? When will I finally be able to look into the mirror and like what I see?

Do not hate your body. Respect all that it does for you. When you take care of it (instead of punishing it), you'll begin to love it again. I've spent almost 20 years hating my body and it's never helped me to lose weight and keep it off. You have the power to choose whether you will treat it kindly or harshly....it will respond accordingly.

The only way for YOU to like what you see in the mirror is to like what YOU see inside of yourself. Trust me...losing weight is only a short-term boost to self-confidence. The secret is to love yourself unconditionally and the secondary effects (weight loss, happier demeanor, confidence) will follow.

You are so young....Please don't hate on yourself!

Get yourself a tape measure and use it. The scale is only one indication of size.

I looked at your diary over the past week and you are consistently low in protein. You need the protein especially when exercising like you do. Also, your nutritionist will probably limit fruit to two a day. You're great with fresh veggies! I saw two bananas in one day which is a lot of sugar; yes it natural sugar but still high in sugar.

I know there will be a lot of disagreements with this, but when I was drinking 10+ glasses of water daily (especially with a high consumption of sodium) I tended to gain water weight. Very frustrating considering a low calorie count overall and exercise.

Good luck to you! Keep going - you're almost there :happy:
Laurie

Don't Panic!!!!! As someone else said, you did not gain this weight overnight and you will not lose it overnight. From the sounds of it you are not eating enough, if you workout that much you are not eating enough and giving your body the fuel it needs. This was very hard for me to overcome when I first started cause my thinking was " Well I need to workout and eat less" I was proven wrong!! Have you ever seen that picture that has a picture of Marilyn Monroe with a little chub on her and a very underweight model with her bones visible? The picture asks " Which one looks better" of course it is the chub. You need to stay away from the scales cause muscle weighs more than fat and the scale can't tell you that, it will just discourage you! You can do it keep it up!!

You have to avoid the scale during TOM because you will see different numbers due to all the factors that comes from that TOM so waiting until it goes away then get on or you will be cheating yourself of your true results!

IMO, self-esteem and confidence come from within. Perhaps you should work on changing your perspective. Losing weight doesn't necessarily make people love themselves or their bodies. Best of luck to you on your journey.

It sounds like you might need to talk to a counselor in addition to a nutritionist. No matter what your weight, this type of obsession with rapid weight loss coupled with an admittedly poor attitude toward your own body is not good. The stress alone can inhibit your weight loss.

I I need to know how to drop more weight, and fast! I know that I will be happier once the weight is gone, I just don't know how much weight needs to go. I look at myself and see the chubby high-schooler with no life and no self-confidence.

How can I drop the weight (even during my T.O.M)?

Two things:

1. Drop weight even during ToM: If you are losing, you are losing. Don't let the water weight and other hormone fluctuations deceive you. Compare numbers over the long haul, not daily. It won't work. It will just make you crazy.

2. The part where you say, "I will be happier once the weight is gone" makes me worried. No doubt, I feel better and happier having lost a few pounds, BUT I don't feel that the pounds defined me or my happiness. Mostly, I'm proud of having bigger, stronger muscles because I feel strong and fit. If you look at it as weight = happiness, you will probably never be happy. I've gone past my first and second goal weights, but I still see little places that I want more toned. If my happiness depended on that, I'd be manic. That is probably one way people end up with body image issues or eating disorders.

my suggestion would be to eat way more protein and way less carbs.

I mean this in the kindest possible way, but a lot of the problem is in your head. I don't mean that you don't need to lose weight. Maybe you do - it's hard to tell from your picture and it's not for me to judge anyway. However, it doesn't sound like you're going to be happy even when you get there, wherever "there" is. It's not unusual to have a slightly distorted view of your body after losing a significant amount of weight. It's hard to look at yourself in the mirror and not see the old you, and it takes a while for your brain to catch up.

This panic though, and saying you hate your body and that you just see the "chubby high-schooler with no life" - this is not stuff that's just going to magically disappear once you hit a certain weight or size. Getting rid of excess weight can definitely help with self-confidence but self-esteem runs a lot deeper than what's on the outside. It sounds like you're depending on the perfect body to finally feel ok about yourself. You need to do what you can to work on your self-esteem regardless of weight, whether you can do that on your own, or whether you need to get some help from a counsellor or someone. There's absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to be a healthy weight, or wanting to feel good in certain clothes, fit into a smaller size etc. When it feels like you're pinning your entire happiness on it, and it needs to happen right now, then it becomes more of a problem, and one that's not going to be solved by a dietician.

Bump! Please help!

The help you need has nothing to do with your weight and everything to do with your panic over your weight. You didn't put the weight on overnight, it's not coming off overnight.

True dat! We need a 12step program for scale addicts around here. LOL