At my wits end, Please help me!

It sounds like you might need to talk to a counselor in addition to a nutritionist. No matter what your weight, this type of obsession with rapid weight loss coupled with an admittedly poor attitude toward your own body is not good. The stress alone can inhibit your weight loss.

I I need to know how to drop more weight, and fast! I know that I will be happier once the weight is gone, I just don't know how much weight needs to go. I look at myself and see the chubby high-schooler with no life and no self-confidence.

How can I drop the weight (even during my T.O.M)?

Two things:

1. Drop weight even during ToM: If you are losing, you are losing. Don't let the water weight and other hormone fluctuations deceive you. Compare numbers over the long haul, not daily. It won't work. It will just make you crazy.

2. The part where you say, "I will be happier once the weight is gone" makes me worried. No doubt, I feel better and happier having lost a few pounds, BUT I don't feel that the pounds defined me or my happiness. Mostly, I'm proud of having bigger, stronger muscles because I feel strong and fit. If you look at it as weight = happiness, you will probably never be happy. I've gone past my first and second goal weights, but I still see little places that I want more toned. If my happiness depended on that, I'd be manic. That is probably one way people end up with body image issues or eating disorders.

my suggestion would be to eat way more protein and way less carbs.

I mean this in the kindest possible way, but a lot of the problem is in your head. I don't mean that you don't need to lose weight. Maybe you do - it's hard to tell from your picture and it's not for me to judge anyway. However, it doesn't sound like you're going to be happy even when you get there, wherever "there" is. It's not unusual to have a slightly distorted view of your body after losing a significant amount of weight. It's hard to look at yourself in the mirror and not see the old you, and it takes a while for your brain to catch up.

This panic though, and saying you hate your body and that you just see the "chubby high-schooler with no life" - this is not stuff that's just going to magically disappear once you hit a certain weight or size. Getting rid of excess weight can definitely help with self-confidence but self-esteem runs a lot deeper than what's on the outside. It sounds like you're depending on the perfect body to finally feel ok about yourself. You need to do what you can to work on your self-esteem regardless of weight, whether you can do that on your own, or whether you need to get some help from a counsellor or someone. There's absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to be a healthy weight, or wanting to feel good in certain clothes, fit into a smaller size etc. When it feels like you're pinning your entire happiness on it, and it needs to happen right now, then it becomes more of a problem, and one that's not going to be solved by a dietician.

Bump! Please help!

The help you need has nothing to do with your weight and everything to do with your panic over your weight. You didn't put the weight on overnight, it's not coming off overnight.

True dat! We need a 12step program for scale addicts around here. LOL

Honestly?

Relax.

Seriously. Chill out. You are coming across as way too panicked about this. Take a serious look at your habits, exercise, and caloric requirements and do the math. This is a good read, as well:

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/654536-in-place-of-a-road-map-2-0-revised-7-2-12

Don't eat too little or you won't like the results. Don't eat too much or you won't like the results.

Work out with a good combination of cardio and weight training. Do some fun things that you enjoy.

Don't freak out. It's a marathon, not a sprint.

Try upping your protein and lowering your carbs. If you are exercising a lot you will need the protein for your muscles. Many carbs can make people bloated, maybe if you cut back to half what you are eating now that will help you.

I agree with others who've said to just get rid of your scales altogether. I've seen people on here who've stayed the same weight/even gained one or two lbs and lost inches, that really depends on the type of exercise you're doing. But still, if you want to monitor progress and not worry about such big fluctuations I think regularly taking your measurements as opposed to actual weight (which can be affected by so many things aside from your diet and exercise habits) will help reduce some of the panic.

I don't think the people suggesting counselling mean it in any sort of offensive way to you, though. I found counselling to be a pretty good tool when I was getting to grips with things because self confidence and learning to appreciate yourself is such a massive part of weight loss- if you despise yourself so much now are you really going to be happy 10lbs down the line? You're more likely to be successful/happy if you can keep a reasonably level headed view of yourself. It's okay to not be happy enough to want to change your weight, but if you're struggling to really appreciate the fact that you're losing inches (and therefore succeeding!) then you're probably not going to be much happier when you reach goal.

Good luck

If you are working on building muscle, throw your scale away. Or just hide it for a few months. The best way to measure progress when you are losing fat and building muscle is by measuring yourself. For every 1 lb of fat space, 3 lbs of muscle can fit there. So if your clothes fit better, you are fine. the scale is the devil