Ugghhh!!!

This is my first time posting, and I really wish it was of a successful picture, but instead it’s of me venting. Not only have I started my path to a healthier lifestyle that involves me trying to drop the weight of a baby horse, but I also am on day 7 of not smoking. I had no problem consuming fewer calories and working out when I was smoking, as a matter of fact, I smoked more so I could curb my hunger and I was getting some results. This last week I have been craving everything, and so I gave in here and there, just because it is more important for me not to smoke than it is to lose the weight. I have no energy, no motivation to work out, but I am doing everything to eat healthy. I am avoiding my scale like it’s the bluebonnet plague,:grumble: because I just can’t handle any disappointments that could possibly push me into a relapse. I am taking Chantix right now to help stop smoking, and it really makes me have those moments of depression where I tend to go back into that horrible cycle of binge eating. The plus side is it really made me hate smoking, hence why I haven’t smoked. I know I can do anything I put my mind to, but it’s not easy balancing the two right now. Two years ago when I quit smoking, I gained 30 lbs in 6 months and then I got pregnant and then I got to my heaviest. I stayed smoke free, up until about 2 months ago, and now I am back to square one. I am hoping that I can use my addiction to food and smoking to get addicted to working out, ha! That would be awesome. Anyhow, please excuse my ramblings, and I know I sound like a space cadet, but I just really want to hear from anyone who has gone through this. I am just one more step closer to gaining control of a healthier lifestyle, as long as I can beat the cravings for chili cheese fries..lol Thanks everybody!!!