NSV-no more self harm

In the last part of high school and through most of college I had bulimic tendencies. My mom convinced me to use Jenny Craig with her for my senior year of high school and that kind of helped since I wasn't eating as much, but when I got to college my problem reared its ugly head.

Normally when I would eat too much I would automatically get the urge to purge. And for the most part I had stopped over the last 6 years, only doing so during a really dark emotional moment. Last night I had made a vegetarian tamale pie. I planned on making just a small portion but when I got finished throwing all my veggies and things in there it became a HUGE portion, and I just couldn't help myself. I ate 1/3 of the 13x9 pan. It was a LOT of food. I was full to the point where I was in pain.

But my NSV? I had no urge to purge. I was fine, happy even because it was so delicious. Since I used all veggies and beans, with hardly any cheese it was really low in calories. I'm taking more today for lunch (not nearly as much though) and I'm happy to finally be in a happy place where I don't have the urge to self harm.