Binged today.. feel horrible about it..

ang3h
ang3h Posts: 185 Member
in Motivation and Support
Need to vent :( I have been pretty good this week, eating sweets in moderation.. eating healthier.. and today it all went to hell. I haven't eaten at a restaurant in a couple weeks and the last couple times I did, I made healthy choices. Well, this morning/afternoon my husband and I went to an Indian buffet.. I only had one plate, small servings of stuff instead of piled high.. but it still probably amounted to about 700-800 calories. I thought to myself, "Oh I'll be good the rest of the day.. I've been doing pretty well, I earned this!" and.. well, I've gorged myself like crazy ever since we got home in the evening. I just started using the food diary a few days ago and I am far too ashamed to add everything I have eaten today.. it is just too awful and I'm so frickin embarrassed and angry at myself. I also skipped the gym today because I'm sore from overdoing it yesterday. I generally go 6 days a week..

I went off my birth control a couple weeks ago because the hormones screw with me too much.. I wonder if this could be a factor, I am craving sweets like crazy. Chocolate, chocolate, chocolate.. and bread.. lots of bread.. pastries, baked stuff. Ugh! I could use some reassurance that this one day out of a week of being "good" isn't going to make me gain back all the weight I worked so hard to lose.. but I know tomorrow morning I'm either going to get on the scale and cry or look in the mirror and think I'm a bloated whale and see fat everywhere, even if places there isn't any.

Why do I do this to myself? I want to say I've gotten better about it, about a month ago I was having an entire "cheat week" after having two "cheat days" in a row.. I seem to have gotten back on track but I still have these awful binge days here and there. I hate this feeling.. I feel so powerless, I realize what I'm doing, continuously going to the fridge and pulling crap out, but I can't stop until all the tempting food is gone.

I'm sorry for all the rambling and whining.. it's very late and I'm very upset :/

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  • beachlover317
    beachlover317 Posts: 2,848 Member
    I'm not sure my answer will help, but here goes. I have been doing MFP since March. I do not trust myself to have a cheat day yet. I do not go to restaurants because I know I will eat too much. I do not keep anything in the house that might tempt me. So far, I am feeling good about my food choices and am feeling better about my health/myself than I have for a long, long, time. I feel very strong about not eating too much of the "regular" foods in the house and that makes me feel strong too. I was an equal opportunity binger. So I am making progress. My husband keeps his treats in the house, but so far, I have not been tempted. I do know that in previous weight loss journeys I simply gave up after I binged. You have not done that. If you want to be successful at ANYTHING, you have to learn how to fall and then get back up. If this is really important to you - do that. Get back up today and keep going. It's the only way we will ever succeed! Stay strong!
  • SandyAnnP
    SandyAnnP Posts: 252 Member
    Hi! What has happened is history- you can't change it, and it certainly isn't worth giving up over it. Think of ALL of the good days you have had!! We are all only human and there would not be many folk on here that haven't had a bit of a binge at one time or another..
    I have gone from somebody who rarely ate sweets to actually craving them- weird I know, so I keep sweet low cal muffins in the freezer and a few packs of low cal snack bars, heck some of them even have chocolate on them. "grin"
    I have been to a Chinese buffet several times last month due to family celebrations, and although I said I would stick to salads and steamed food, well it was a different story when I got there, so I decided I would enjoy everything I had, and cut back on dinner that night, and the next day. Just get back on track and you will be fine, don't beat yourself up, you are only human like the rest of us and if we were all perfect there wouldn't be any need for MFP. Just keep going, you CAN do it. Sandy. :)
  • urglewurgle
    urglewurgle Posts: 224 Member
    Don't beat yourself up about it Hun. What's done is done. I would try and enjoy your treats, otherwise what's the point? But then get back on it!
  • ang3h
    ang3h Posts: 185 Member
    Thank you all so much for the responses and support.. I'm doing better today but all I can think about is devouring my husband's cereal! So far I had one bowl earlier today but I keep eyeing that box everytime I walk into the kitchen..lol.
  • dawnM3007
    dawnM3007 Posts: 37
    Hi, I could have almost written this post myself as I've done pretty much exactly the same! I started recording my food about a week ago and have beengetting on well but then yesterday I was really tired, still went to my exercise class in the morning and did well. Was very busy all day and ate well but after walking my dog at around 7pm ish I crashed and craved chocolate and wanted some wine to relax me. I went to the shop and got a bottle of wine and resisted getting myself a really big bar of chocolate that was on offer and said to myself I'll just have a little of my mums chocolate and just a glass of wine and that will b enough. Well I ended up drinking the whole bottle of wine, I ate loads of mini packs of biscuits (I usually have 1 a day as my treat) I also ate a massive pot of my fiancés Greek and honey yoghurt etc. I did keep tracking because I felt I needed to see just how much I was eating but once my cals for the day went well over 3000 I couldn't face putting anything else on. Now this morning I feel bloated and yuk and wondering why I did that! Anyway now I've had a moan I'm going to move on and get positive ready for the day. I have decided yesterday was a write off!
  • Restybaby2012
    Restybaby2012 Posts: 568 Member
    Please dont pound yourself over this. You cant fix yesterday....and beating yourself up over a slip will only make it
    harder to get back on your feet.

    Im one that cannot trust myself to behave with certain foods. Chocolate is one (M&Ms)....potatoes and brown
    gravy...french fries....so I KNOW I cannot have them in the house. Its hard sometimes. I was this way with cigs
    when I quit....I couldnt have em in the house or be near anybody who was smoking. Now? Doesnt bother me.

    Jut jump back up on your wagon and give yourself a healthy push and RUNNNNNNNN like the wind. You CAN
    do this
  • Marmitegeoff
    Marmitegeoff Posts: 373 Member
    Don't beat yourself up about it Hun. What's done is done. I would try and enjoy your treats, otherwise what's the point? But then get back on it!

    Plus 1 to the above.

    I find that going for low GI foods in the morning reduces my cravings and hunger pangs, untill I move up the GI scale later in the day. I am no expert but the theory as I understand it is that you keep your insulin levels low and this reduces the hunger pangs. It seems to work for me.
  • Anayalata
    Anayalata Posts: 391 Member
    If you want to be successful at ANYTHING, you have to learn how to fall and then get back up. If this is really important to you - do that. Get back up today and keep going. It's the only way we will ever succeed! Stay strong!

    :)
  • Dantanian
    Dantanian Posts: 18 Member
    Don't worry about it, so you ate a few things you shouldn't have. The best thing you can do is look on it as a reward to yourself for all the good work you have done. Pick yourself up and put twice the effort in today.

    Good Luck.

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