feeling horrible

meggiesroad

Hello,
Nothing fits well. My boobs are huge. My belly is bloated. Everytime I exercise I over do it and then I'm so sore I feel like an OLD LADY but I'm only 52. My face is getting brown spots. My hair is all frizzy and out of control. What is wrong with me? If I look at food I gain weight. I sleep poorly… ugh! I don't know where to start… no carb? calorie counting? exercise every day? videos? walking? biking? I can't stand how I am now and I don't even know how this happened. Should I start with a fast? Eat nothing but veggies?

My dad was super skinny all his life but he would starve himself to be like that… When I try to starve myself I just get so hungry I over eat and gain wt.

I'm in such a downward spiral.

My thoughts are so negative. I spend so much time on social websites and obsess about things I have no control over. I am certain no one likes me and why would they? I treat what friends I have terribly… talking about all my problems…

There have been things that have been overwhelming to me that I just can't seem to get past but I am at the point where I know it is TIME. Time to move on. Time to stop punishing myself. Time to forgive myself and others. Time to open the next door and WALK THROUGH IT. Time to stop being negative and focus on the positive and all I have to be thankful for.

In the morning I can barely get out of bed… I want to get up and walk but I don't. I find excuses. EXCUSES! Every single time. I have to start… So, I'm going to start in the morning and walk 30 minutes. That's all. 30 minutes. and then do it again the next day and the next… Add some sit-ups, push ups, leg lifts, and a few other things that I know helps me feel better… THEN eat healthy… veggies, lean meats, take my vitamins and think happy positive thoughts.
put on my make up and tell myself I am beautiful inside and out. EVERY SINGLE DAY!

Gotta start. It starts NOW.