Taking the leap?

wolfpack29

Trying something new is always difficult for me. It's due almost entirely to the need to reach this unattainable goal of wanting to be great at anything I try. And even though I know it holds me back, I still have the fear. I mean, that's what I like to call it. It's funny because like everyone I've failed at so many things, and while it wasn't particularly enjoyable-- the world didn't end. Which is why I know I have it in me to loose weight.

This weight thing, is something I've been struggling with for as long as I can remember. Struggling with my weight and appearance from an age that I probably shouldn't have known that those things mattered to some. But no matter how much pain you feel, there is something that holds you back from actually just going for it, from making the change, from being really happy.

I mean I know it's not "easy", but why do we choose to keep ourselves in pain? I feel like for me, it's a form of punishing myself. To be honest, I'm just really sick of that part of me. Even if it doesn't seem like it holds me back, it does in so many ways-- mostly being emotional, which is really the worst.

So I'm taking the leap, I will join groups, I will tell friends, and say things that embarras me (this). I will eat better, exercise more, and try and conquer this thing that's been keeping me in such a state for so long. I'm 220lbs, I'm going to be less.. It's going to take a while, but I will do it. I will know that I won't be perfect but that if I try, that will be enough.

And basically I'd love people to talk to about their journey, about advice, about conquering this thing. I'm excited to hear more.

Lylie1985

far out I could've written this myself! Well done on being a better you. Will send a friend request