who can I tell?

Moniqua1

Every time I try to tell someone about how deeply I'm affected by the thoughts I'm about to share, I feel dismissed. At my heaviest, I was 160lbs and 5'3. At my smallest, I was 115lbs. I am struggling with body image at 125. Now, I'm quite aware that I am at a healthy weight and I do remember that even at 115 I felt the same way. I am so tired of picking myself apart. I'm upset that I can't feel confident. I'm tired of people rolling their eyes when I say I want to either lose ten lbs or better yet, firm everything up. I don't like that when my boyfriend puts his arm around my waist, I cringe and feel uncomfortable and have to tell him that I feel chubby so I don't want him to touch me. It has gotten out of control. I don't care if people tell me that I'm being ridiculous. It doesn't change how I feel. I don't know what to do. I'm reaching out because I'm just...sad that what I know I should be happy with, I can't FEEL happy about. It is every single day. If you read this, thank you. I began trying to talk to a friend and my mom about it but I always end up backing away from explaining it or erased it before sending a text. I had to get this off my chest.

teagirlmedium

I used to feel like that. There were places on my body people were not allowed to touch. You may need to talk to strangers about it in online groups. I can understand wanting to weigh less even though most people would think you are fine the way you are. At 125lbs for your height, most people will see you as thin and will probably think you are lucky. Firming up is a good idea, losing 10 pounds is a good idea if you want to do that go for it. But the people in your life might think you are going to low and may be worried. They may also not see the point since you look small, because most people stop their diets when they get around your weight.