Recovery?

bluecat145

Between August and now a lot has changed. I was diagnosed with anorexia recently, though I have not mentioned it on this site yet because I'm in between therapists. My first therapist, my GP, and a counselor all agree that I should go into inpatient.
I do not want to do that. I'm trying to fix myself, but it's hard. I've gone from eating 700 a day, to 860, and now I'm jumping up to 1000. I'm terrified I'll gain weight, but my parents said if I don't show any improvement within the next day, I'm going to the program.
The problem is, I like that weight I'm at now more than any other weight I've been at. I'm 5'4 92lbs. I don't feel like I need to gain weight or recover. I've gotten a lot of compliments on my weight now and I feel more confident, but it's killing my parents. They want me to be 110. I don't want to be. Both of them are overweight, though not severely. I'm scared they're going to get me up to 140, which was my weight before this all started.
Does anyone have any advice? I would specifically want someone who has also struggled with an eating disorder? What can I do?
(I'm in between therapists, so please don't tell me to talk to one right now).

sofaking6

Check in the forum on Gaining Weight, there are quite a few posts from people in recovery there. But please remember these are people who are in recovery and are serious about improving their health - this is NOT a pro-ana site and it would be pretty irresponsible if you encouraged people in recovery to go back to disordered eating. Your desire to remain severely underweight does not point to wanting to get better, only to wanting your parents off your back. You can't fix what you don't think is broken.

ETA I hope this doesn't come off as an attack or accusation, it's very much not meant to be.

ltssharon

I have only therapy success with ego state therapy for any problem. it is kind and gentle

brianpperkins

bluecat145 wrote: »

Between August and now a lot has changed. I was diagnosed with anorexia recently, though I have not mentioned it on this site yet because I'm in between therapists. My first therapist, my GP, and a counselor all agree that I should go into inpatient.
I do not want to do that. I'm trying to fix myself, but it's hard. I've gone from eating 700 a day, to 860, and now I'm jumping up to 1000. I'm terrified I'll gain weight, but my parents said if I don't show any improvement within the next day, I'm going to the program.
The problem is, I like that weight I'm at now more than any other weight I've been at. I'm 5'4 92lbs. I don't feel like I need to gain weight or recover. I've gotten a lot of compliments on my weight now and I feel more confident, but it's killing my parents. They want me to be 110. I don't want to be. Both of them are overweight, though not severely. I'm scared they're going to get me up to 140, which was my weight before this all started.
Does anyone have any advice? I would specifically want someone who has also struggled with an eating disorder? What can I do?
(I'm in between therapists, so please don't tell me to talk to one right now).

Let's see ... you claim that you're "terrified" that you'll gain weight, that you don't need to gain weight or recover, yet you have multiple medical professionals giving you the same recommendation of inpatient therapy. Running to the internet in the hope that somebody will foolishly make a comment that counters medical advice that you can latch on to is almost as unhealthy as your other behaviors. Your parents, GP, first therapist, and counselor were right.