Am I thin or delusional?

mesmith199
mesmith199 Posts: 4
edited November 2014 in Health and Weight Loss
I'm 5'5" and 125-130 pounds(weight fluctuates before my period. I gain weight before and lose it after). I'm a pretty regular runner. I run 30 minutes straight several times a week because I love it. I've lifted weights in the past. And still I feel like my weight is too much. I feel heavy. I look at myself and think I could look a lot better. I'm told I'm larger framed (wide hips and shoulders) and tend to be muscular, but I feel like people just say that to make me feel better. There may be something to it. My hips are wide yet feel bony. I honestly think I could lose so much more weight. Ideally in the 110-120 range, but trying to lose more weight has been really difficult. I've dieted myself down from 160 over the course of a year. I've been at this weight for a while now. I'm disappointed in myself. And I've had more success personally NOT logging my food on myfitnesspal. I don't know what it is about logging food that impeded my weight loss. I think it created too much guilt and caused me to undereat during the day to meet unrealistic goals and binge later and then undereat. It failed because of my obsession with my weight. I'm constantly afraid of looking the way I did before, of gaining the weight back. I feel terrible. I'm obsessive and writing food down and weighing myself doesn't help. I know I have a problem beyond weight loss. It's very difficult to balance my desire to lose weight with my own sense of well-being and happiness.

I'm not sure if it's fat or muscle on my stomach.

http://imgur.com/JkoowyE

http://i.imgur.com/940dNqy.jpg

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  • Kristinemomof3
    Kristinemomof3 Posts: 636 Member
    You are thin, but could benefit from strength training. Maybe couseling too.
  • gothchiq
    gothchiq Posts: 4,590 Member
    You are slender.
  • Graelwyn75
    Graelwyn75 Posts: 4,404 Member
    You look a healthy weight.
    My only suggestion would be to hit the weights, personally.
    That will tighten things up and do far more for appearance than losing more weight ever will.
  • rdkstar
    rdkstar Posts: 260 Member
    I agree you look great. I would focus on weight training more and less on calorie restriction.
  • Liftng4Lis
    Liftng4Lis Posts: 15,151 Member
    Graelwyn75 wrote: »
    You look a healthy weight.
    My only suggestion would be to hit the weights, personally.
    That will tighten things up and do far more for appearance than losing more weight ever will.

    Awesome advice!
  • Edie30
    Edie30 Posts: 216
    ^^ yep, what she said. You look great. Lifting some weights would make you look amazing, but you already look great. And yes... Slender :-)
  • mesmith199
    mesmith199 Posts: 4
    Thanks for all the comments. Can anyone point me in the direction of a good weight lifting nutrition plan? I actually love lifting weights and was good at it. I did it a lot in the past but had to stop because I wasn't able to eat enough to see any serious gains and I wore myself out. I had no energy to get through week. I have a hard time letting go on my own, and I feel like if I had a decent plan I could maybe pull it off. And I'd love to try to use weight lifting as a supplement to running (I love running too much to give it up completely but I'm aware that you can't necessarily excel at both aerobic and resistance exercise at the same time).
  • hsmith0930
    hsmith0930 Posts: 160 Member
    I don't know if I'm allowed to post links, but check out funeralformyfat on tumblr. She has some fantastic tips and great encouragement.

    I think you look thin and fit. Could you lose more weight? Probably. But it probably won't result in the type of body you're looking for.
  • Graelwyn75
    Graelwyn75 Posts: 4,404 Member
    edited November 2014
    I think this myfitnesspal group, 'Eat Train Progress' is your best bet for advice on a lifting plan and what to do nutritionally. They have helped many here, and are very knowledgeable.

    http://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/group/10118-eat-train-progress
  • WalkingAlong
    WalkingAlong Posts: 4,926 Member
    You look terrific. And your BMI is 20-21, which is on the lower half of 'normal'.

    Lifting is great for general health but be warned many women will never achieve that fitness model look, so go in with low expectations for aesthetic change.
  • SLLRunner
    SLLRunner Posts: 12,942 Member
    I advise you speak to someone about your body image issues. In my opinion, and no offense intended, but it seems to me asking people on the internet if you are too thin might not be real healthy.
  • bwogilvie
    bwogilvie Posts: 2,130 Member
    Graelwyn75 wrote: »
    I think this myfitnesspal group, 'Eat Train Progress' is your best bet for advice on a lifting plan and what to do nutritionally. They have helped many here, and are very knowledgeable.

    http://community.myfitnesspal.com/en/group/10118-eat-train-progress

    Yes, seconding this group. Very supportive if you're serious, but they don't tolerate BS. Read the rules before posting.
  • mesmith199
    mesmith199 Posts: 4
    SLLRunner wrote: »
    I advise you speak to someone about your body image issues. In my opinion, and no offense intended, but it seems to me asking people on the internet if you are too thin might not be real healthy.

    No offence taken. I agree. Mentally I have A LOT of issues with body image. I've done a lot of things to try to help myself resolve these issues. I've spoken to lots of people. I've tried a lot of things to feel better. Sometimes I wonder if it's just in my head or if it's real. Body Dismorphia Disorder makes weight loss hell sometimes. My mental issues get mixed up with my exercise/diet and really undermine my well-intentioned efforts at improving my body and enjoying exercise.

    Thank you. I'm going to look into that group. I don't necessarily want the "fitness model" look. I actually just enjoy exercise and pushing myself, but again I had to stop weight lifting because I was wearing myself out for the entire week because I definitely wasn't eating to support the exercise. I'm particularly looking into nutrition plans.
  • SLLRunner
    SLLRunner Posts: 12,942 Member
    mesmith199 wrote: »
    SLLRunner wrote: »
    I advise you speak to someone about your body image issues. In my opinion, and no offense intended, but it seems to me asking people on the internet if you are too thin might not be real healthy.

    No offence taken. I agree. Mentally I have A LOT of issues with body image. I've done a lot of things to try to help myself resolve these issues. I've spoken to lots of people. I've tried a lot of things to feel better. Sometimes I wonder if it's just in my head or if it's real. Body Dismorphia Disorder makes weight loss hell sometimes. My mental issues get mixed up with my exercise/diet and really undermine my well-intentioned efforts at improving my body and enjoying exercise.

    Thank you. I'm going to look into that group. I don't necessarily want the "fitness model" look. I actually just enjoy exercise and pushing myself, but again I had to stop weight lifting because I was wearing myself out for the entire week because I definitely wasn't eating to support the exercise. I'm particularly looking into nutrition plans.

    Hang in there. Body acceptance comes from within, not without. :)<3

  • phyllb
    phyllb Posts: 735 Member
    Personally I think you look fantastic. Great job dropping down from 160 and maintaining. Enjoy the running over time you will remodel into runners body which sounds like what you are looking for
    Enjoy this time of looking great. If u can't consider counselling
  • shai74
    shai74 Posts: 512 Member
    You wouldn't want to lose any more weight in my opinion. You're already at the bottom end of healthy, and you are quite thin to look at. I think you really need to seek counselling first, and weight training second, if you still think you're fat.

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