Starting Over

taracottagreen87

So I am back TO MFP after I stopped exercising and basically went off the wagon.I was doing so well but I have now gained back all my weight loss from the last year in two months!I am so depressed about this.I have lost 70 lbs so far and kept it off in the last 5 years but I feel like my whole life has been obsessing over what to eat and I can't ever just eat and not worry or when I am being healthy I obsess and it has even interfered with my relationship because my DH is not understanding and he can eat whatever he wants and not gain weight he even uses MFP.I will go out with him and spend the whole time trying to figure out how many calories I can have and by the time I do that I am starving and hes like hello talk to me!I have signed up for $5 dinner menu plan so that seems to be helping I plan it all out and I know how many calories are in it so we just sit down and eat.I also struggle with eating out, I make excuses like well its McDonalds just eat whatever it impossible to eat healthy here but even they have snack wraps or other things and I can go to a restaurant and eat without having 5 bread sticks or get extra veggies or apples instead of chips etc.Its crazy I know what to do what the right choices are I just find I like eating whatever I want and not thinking about it.Does anyone have any tips so this can truly be a lifestyle that is easy and not a obsession.