Somewhat New

imperfect188

Hello MFP. My name is Elle and I’m somewhat new here. I joined about a year ago and was steady tracking for a few weeks before falling off. Afterwards I was somewhat eating healthy for a few months but since moving back home due to school I’ve gained a few pounds. I knew I was gaining weight (but in denial of the amount) based on my horrible eating habits the last few months. My wake up call was a few days ago when I put on a loose shirt that I had bought in September. I now have excessive back fat and I feel embarrassed.

I use to work out at least 3-4 times a week when I was living on my own. Prior to moving back home I sprained my ankle and since then its been giving me trouble so it makes doing certain things difficult. I enjoyed strength training and jogging but it’s hard for me to do too much of that before my ankle starts to hurt.

I’m the only fat one in my family. Everyone can eat whatever they want and not gain a single pound. It was easier to control what foods I was available to when I was living on my own. I rarely bought junk food or ate out but that’s all changed and I’m finding it a bit hard to deal with it. Sometimes it’s hard to resist temptation when I’m surrounded by unhealthy foods. Last night my sister ordered pizza and I just put on a movie and drank tea. As small as that seems I felt proud of myself.

I’m very self-conscious about my weight and it’s influencing every aspect of my life. I’m embarrassed to say that I have anxiety about going outside and interacting with people (either than work and school). I avoid hanging out with my friends because I feel awful about myself. Most of the time I make up excuses not to hang out with them. I feel like I’m turning into a hermit and I need to change.

Food has always been my comfort and I know that if I continue with my horrible habits my health will suffer. I’m slowly learning to channel that energy into something else. It’s been 3 days since I’ve been steady tracking and although it’s not long it means something to me. All I can do is take it one day at a time.

queenliz99

You can eat what you want, just eat less of it. Exercise is for health.