The Girl in the Mirror

meleissa

I have my good days. Days when i look in the mirror and dont see a 40 pound overweight woman. I see a beautful lady, with big almond eyes, long wavy hair and a smile I have always been complemented on. So I smile, in front of the mirror, and then through the entire day.

I have my bad days, when I look in the mirror, and I see a fat woman, with ugly arms, and bulging bags of fat hanging from everywhere, and the smile makes it worse. I take a picture of myself, who knows the mirror may lie! And I look again. This time the the tears dont stop. I bite my lips, dont give up. I wear somethin prettier, sexier and look again. The same, no, worse! I give up now!, feel misrable the entire day, avoid people cause I feel they would notice how overweight I have become and talk about it. AllI do is wait for the day to be over so that I could crawl back into the bed, hiding away, forever if possible.

Don't get me wrong, I am not depressed. In fact, I have many more good days then the bad days. But the truth isI want to stop having those bad days. I want to stop looking at the mirror with regret.I want to look, feel prettier, sexier. I want to wear sleevless and backless dresses and look good in them. I want to stop wearing clothes in xl size. I want to walk into tight spaces without being conscious. I want to stop feeling guilty for taking more space in a car pool ora crowded elevator. I wan to stop having to smile through all the jokes, remarks and the so called advices that are made on me, made to me! Most of all, I want to stop hiding now... no more, I deserve better!

I have about 40 pounds to lose to reach my goal weight. I have tried before, I will try again. This time I have my weapons ready. I have people to support and encourage me, I have the tools and resources I would need along the journey,, I have my fitness and meal plans on place and most importantly, this time, I have me, my full determination, enthusiasm and faith. This time, I know, I wont ever be scared of the mirror again.

cwagar123

Yep... you CAN do this.
I have lost 40... have 80 more to go.
You can add me if you want... I am on here everyday

Noogynoogs

Just focus on the beautiful bits

meleissa

Thanks for believing!

Congrats on your 40! I cant wait to reach there!

I try my best to focus on the beautiful bits but it feels like i am lying to myself!

221shannon

I'm in that same place. I keep losing/gaining like a yoyo. I'm online everyday feel free to add me!

Noogynoogs

Keep doing it and eventually you do believe in yourself

0067808

You're beautiful right now - and when you lose weight you'll still be beautiful, but you'll look different and maybe feel better within yourself. Don't wait till you're slim to live your life - grab it with both hands right now because you've been made perfect in every way.

mrsKOrtiz

Feel free to add me. I feel like that at times, too. I think most of us do anyway! We can do this!