Up & down, down & up

courtokinesis

My story isn't much different than anyone else's. Courtney, 5'4, currently 178 pounds, wishing I was back to 140.

In 2011 I lost 30 lbs, regained in 2012, lost again in 2013, back up in 2014.
I am ready to rid myself of my excess baggage forever - I am sure this trend is not only wreaking havoc on my mind, but body as well.

I need support. I find I don't have much of a spine when it comes to food. I trick myself into eating terrible things and feel horrible (physically and emotionally) afterwards. It's simply not a healthy relationship with what I'm shoving into my face.

I don't have a timeline to drop these lbs - and the weight I'm carrying around is always on my mind. Don't get me wrong - I'm not obese, just a teensy bit overweight; but it's enough to make me not-feel-so-hot and inhibits me. I'm in no rush, but it'd be great to see results and feel strong in my decision.

I am not looking to be skinny. I want to be , healthy, fit, confident, have a better relationship with food, and honestly... have good posture.