An Insect Among Gods

TEZofAllTrades

I work in the education sector and my new job happens to be at a university that specialises in its sport programmes.

Everyone is very fit and I applied for/accepted the job hoping it would be an inspirational tool. Well I didn't think it though properly. Instead it's making me feel really bad about myself especially since I get some downright horrified/dirty looks from some of the model-like staff and students.

I tend to be a bit hyperaware (or paranoid...) as it is but It's really bugging me to think that as fitness experts in-training, they must look at me and see their worst nightmare and know exactly how bad my fitness and/or nutrition must be. I feel like I want to walk around with a big sign saying "I'm working on it okay!" and how much I've lost so far.

I haven't abandoned my diet or anything but it's really getting me down. In the past I've been able to compartmentalise this sort of thing but my talent for that has been fading as of late. Any ideas as to how I can snap out of it? Anyone experienced similar feelings/situations?

agratzy

First off: know that this is not the rest of the world! You are comparing yourself to an "elite" group as far as fitness goes. It's unfair to yourself to do so!

Second: If you are working on it, that's all you need. Several times I have sat down only to notice the roll in my stomach and think, "For real? I've been good this week." But I just have to remind myself I am working on it. It's not a quick process, and if it was, it wouldn't truly be working or sustainable.

Third: You're already wonderful. If you're losing weight, that's good on you, but you seem educated and intelligent and the weight is just the outside of the package! It's nothing but the frosting on the cake. (Or the... I don't know a good non-desert reference. The almonds on the yogurt? lol).

You can do this!

palwithme

You are not an insect and they are not Gods. Your life has just as much value as theirs. You are just at a different stage in your journey. It is a simple, though challenging, journey and you will succeed. When you do, will you look at heavy people differently? Probably not.

TEZofAllTrades

agratzy wrote: »

and the weight is just the outside of the package! It's nothing but the frosting on the cake. (Or the... I don't know a good non-desert reference. The almonds on the yogurt? lol).

You can do this!

Thanks, that made me smile Might have to try almonds on my yoghurt now!

palwithme wrote: »

When you do, will you look at heavy people differently? Probably not.

Cheers. Hmm, hate to say it but I'm not sure. I'd like to think that my own experiences give me some understanding, but sometimes even now I am quick to judge others for their size, then I'll catch my reflection and think "you're one to talk!".

Anyone else do that or am I just a horrible human being?