Not entirely new, but never introduced myself...

Jagerin

I've been using MFP for 41 days now and I realized that I've never really introduced myself to the community.

I'm Jagerin, and that means Huntress. I'm a 27-year-old Asexual and my gender is 'GenderQueer' and I'm also Aromantic. If you'd like more information about any of those, please feel free to ask. I'm an easy going person and I like to chat.

I read just about anything given to me or that I find. I also write short stories and last month put my first short book of short stories up for sale on the Amazon Kindle Market.

I work the front desk at H&R Block and am taking their tax preparation course this coming fall so I can prepare taxes for people next tax season.

I am married and we have a daughter together. She's five years old and loves to draw.

I stepped on the scale one morning about 50 days ago and saw the numbers 281 and freaked out. I spent the day crying and wondering how I had gotten to this point. I thought back over the past 10 years of my life. Getting married, having a baby, losing our car, losing our house, losing my grandpa, losing my great grandma, coming out as an Asexual to my family and friends, losing my job, losing friends and family due to who I am and them not supporting it, feeling lost and cold all the time. I realized that I'd also lost control of myself.

I'd always told my husband, jokingly, that if I ever reached 300lbs that he should just take me out back and put me out of my misery. I suddenly had the realization that my god, it's not a joke anymore.

I never had a ceiling weight, but I always knew I never wanted to be this heavy. I've only just started my weight loss, but I want to get it and my life back under my control. So much has been taken away from me and so much out of my control, I refuse to let it be like this anymore.

I don't care what I physically look like in the mirror. I just want to be able to look in the mirror and see something happy in my eyes again. This is just a part of that journey. Writing my stories to publishing (fiction and non-fiction), losing weight, learning to love food instead of just having something to eat, getting a good job again, appreciating the friends I have who support me for who I am, and making new friends who support me as who I am. These are my goals to make myself look happy when I look in the mirror.

About a week into my new life decisions, I decided I needed a little help and downloaded the MFP app to my kindle, which lead me to the website.

I'm nice and friendly, but I don't like just adding random people to some kind of friends list. I even deleted my own grandmother from my Facebook list because I hadn't contacted her via it in a month. If I don't communicate with you, then I have no reason to have you on some sort of list. *shrugs* Just the kind of person I am. However, if we chat and what not, I'm perfectly happy to add you to some sort of buddy list. I hate lists though.

So now that you know way too much about me...here I am!

I talk too much...

-Jager