Serious about losing sixty pounds.

autumnreached

I have recently come to accept that I am someone who can be addictive with things and it's usually me overdoing food or alcohol as a way to deal.

I have never been very motivated to be active or healthy, but also always "kind of" in an unhealthy place but not enough to want to do something about it.

About 8 years ago, I came to a healthy weight and while I gained a little, it was still in an okay range. Or, if I did go a little out of range, I caught myself.

Between 140 and 150 was where I was and even then, thought "could lose a little but not urgent". However, I was still pretty emotionally unhealthy and not paying enough attention to my actual wants or needs.

Last September, I started my first serious relationship. I am a late bloomer and wasn't ready for anything past my previous "just a few months" preference.

While we both grew a lot as people, we also both found comfort in food and drink. In just about 6months, I gained 50lbs.

I thought it was just 30, until I weighed myself.

I kept at that weight until our break up this past November and have since lost 10lbs.

But, no more, as food and alcohol still brought me comfort and that was keeping me from any sort of plan.

This week, I had a lot of things come up for me. I also did my usual buzzing of my hair, which at this weight, looks pretty horrible on me. Whereas, before, it looked fine.

I feel gross in general and I also am tired of no motivation. I also just started school again last month, after not ever being a good student and previously had dropped out.

Today, I'm taking my time and just focusing on eating when I am hungry and staying within range. I could over plan but I know that's only keep me from actually doing it.

Slow and steady. Focus just on staying within range. Then, see where I go.

Thanks for reading. Wishing you all the best, too.

89Madeline

Good luck! And a good idea to take it slow, you don't have to hurry, just be diligent about it! MFP works better with friends, i would recommend adding some (you can add me) as well as opening up your diary so people can help you when you think you're stuck!