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Amanda_Please88

My name is Amanda, and I guess I am not a new member as I have had an account for a while, but never really kept up with it. I noticed I needed to start working on my weight when I got up to 260lbs back in early 2012. I took a picture on the night that I weighed myself and when I was tagged in the picture later I couldn't believe that I had let myself gain so much weight.

I joined a MMA fighting team and lost a lot of weight. I got down to about 215lbs. but then needed to get a second job while I was in college. I hit a plateau and started to gain weight again, and got back up to 225lbs. I then started a full time, big kid job, and met wonderful, and powerful women while working there, and we started a personal facebook weight loss page. It helped so much and I made my way down to 194lbs. My group helped keep me on track until recently. I took what started out as a two week break, and then started to hate working out, and tended to eat whatever I wanted.

I began getting depressed because I could see myself gaining the weight that I worked so hard to lose back. I weighed myself on Monday and I was back up to 208... I wrote a post on my groups page, and realized I needed to get back in shape. One of the sentences I wrote was, "I need to get my will power back but don't know how."

I reread my post over and over again and I decided to jump back onto My Fitness Pal so I could relearn about portion control, and to help me rerealize when I was hungry or bored.

Although I hate that I get in such a habit of getting on and off the wagon, I love that I have learned a lot about myself each time I have fallen off, and have been able to utilize this knowledge to keep me on track. For example, I usually start out REALLY ambitions on Monday (my usual weigh in days) and burn myself out by Wednesday, or that I will forget to set mini goals, and often lose sight of my larger long term ones. Mini goals are just as important, if not more so than long term goals. I personally attempt to have weekly goals, (which I have learned that I cannot set to many as I will accomplish some and not all (causing me to get discouraged and fall of the wagon.) monthly goals, and long term goals.

My long term goal weight is to be 170lbs. My reward will be the tattoo that I have been wanting for YEARS. I told myself I couldn't get it until I reached my goal weight. And I want that DAMN tattoo!!! smiley:

Add me as a friend if you want because I can use all the help I can get!

Thanks for reading!