Just starting...need encouragement :/

mollywhopkac

I'm over 150 lbs and have a 3 yr old boy. I am single mother and my usual weight is 120-125. I am a total couch potato unless I'm working and I love about 40oz of Merlot each night but eat pretty healthy when not tempted to a cookie or 5 from my son but lots of egg whites with salsa and jalapeño se I'm a total pepper belly love raw spinach salad with red wine vinegar grilled salmon shrimp mushrooms eggplant lean turkey etc but I've gained so much that I don't fit in any clothes and can't afford new ones it's so difficult to look in the mirror which prevents me from leaving the house. I'm very short pushing 5'2" so gaining 1 lb is like gaining 2 for me so please help and I had a cesariun and just purchased a polarFT4 to help count calories burned to help motivate. Please I need help bc I've run out of excuses and I feel I'm passing the point of no return and just giving up