Hello! New here!

Hello, I'm currently 30 years old and 197 pounds. Pretty damn depressing if I say so myself, I'm absolutely desperate to lose weight. I want to be healthy! And a role model for my Children, three crazy kids and I feel embarrassed for them for having a Mother my size. Especially when their Friends parents are rather slim, thankfully their still young. I pray I lose the weight before they become judgemental, and yes I know it's how you raise them and so forth. These are my own fears. I've been big since I can remember and it's really time to end this nightmare of shopping in the plus size section. Anyways, looking for Friends so I don't feel completely alone in this journey!