Is in an Abusive Relationship....

JW_Reece

Hey fellow MYFitnesspal peeps,

Just wanted to say I've been reading the discussion boards and its a relief to find other people who have been in the same toxic relationships with themselves as I have been since I was in junior high! Well I've finally had enough and I'm ready to break up with ....well myself and start a new and improved relationship that I deserve and that brings me happiness in life!! I'm very blessed in almost every aspect of my life and I've always been someone who had the utmost discipline and determination in every aspect of my life EXCEPT for with my weight and relationships with food. I've had so many relationships with food in my years here on earth that you could say I'm a serial dater with commitment issues just hopping in and out of "bed" with any hot piece of food that would give me the time of day!! Sometimes I even found myself talking to my food! Not like in the "im crazy" kind of way but more like the ....ok wait that is crazy, im not even going to justify that one. Lol

At any rate, having laid it all out there for you all to see....you might be asking yourself what's different this time!? Why does Jeffery think this time it's going to stick or he's going to be successful? How do we know he's not going to have a lonely night of weakness and take his old self back?! Well that's an excellent question and I just have to go on faith here. The one significant different this time is that I just buried my Mother less than 6 months ago who I lost to the very disease of obesity. All the complications that come with a lifetime of being overweight and unhealthy. Before she died she told me that she loved me and she didn't want to see me follow in her footsteps. Learn from her mistakes and make the life changes I needed to do so that her present wasn't my future. I took that with a grain of salt then but in the months after her death it really started to sink in. I went to the dr for the first time in decades and was told that while I'm still healthy now I have early signs of complications that somewhat mirrored the beginnings of hers when she was my age. I know that some day I'm going to die but I'll be darned if I'm gonna go out like she did and put my own family thru the heart ache of watching me die a long slow death. While I was blessed to spend every moment with her in those long years of her deterioration....it was to date the hardest thing I've ever went through and I don't want to put my loved ones through that...

So there's my story. What's your story!? Why is this time going to be different than all the others? What's your motivation to break up with your old self and stop letting them have control over you? If you watched a friend in an abusive relationship with someone else you'd tell them to GET OUT now before it's too late!!! Well then why are you staying in an abusive relationship with yourself?!!

Jeffery

tgoetschius

You really put a lot of things into perspective for me! Just the other day I asked myself what was going to make this time different and now I finally see why. Thank you for sharing your story.

JW_Reece

tgoetschius wrote: »

You really put a lot of things into perspective for me! Just the other day I asked myself what was going to make this time different and now I finally see why. Thank you for sharing your story.

That is beyond awesome!! Thank you for sharing that with me. I really have faith that you will be successful because attitude is the hardest part of the battle and you seem to have the right attitude about it!! Good luck on your journey and finding your better you!