Hello I'm old new

lizhowelltoner · March 2015

My name is Liz. I'm 33 years old and a Christian, mother of two! This is just one of my many attempts to live a healthier lifestyle! This time is different though! I will succeed! Six months ago I was diagnosed with Arnold chiari malformation. In short and easy terms...my skull is too small for my brain... It was literally falling out. Falling out and pushing on my spinal cord, leaving me with a whole load of horrible problems, like daily migraines. Three weeks after my diagnosis, I had a decompression surgery To make room for my brain... Since then, my health has declined and I have diagnosed with many other syndromes and diseases... And because everything I have is hereditary my two beautiful and amazing children have to be tested for everything and more, just to be safe! The earlier these things are caught, the better!
So for the last few months, I've lasted around and become a ball of jelly, too much pain and too any pain meds to do much else! I got heavier and gooeyier, which caused me to feel sadder and more hopeless about my life and my health, and them when I thought about my babies having to go through these things... Well let's just say... It hasn't been good!
Until a week, maybe two weeks ago. God have me an amazing gift of revelation. Ify children did in fact have any of the same problems, then how was I teaching them to fight them? I wasn't. I've been teaching them to lay down, suffer, accept disease, and be your illness! Essentially god was telling me to pick myself up and quit being my illness! Learn how to beat them, so if I have you can teach the kids how, so that I can teach others how to!
So here I am... It's a slow process, which turns my insides, because I'm used to pushing myself to getax results, but I'm working on it! At this point I'm not as focused in eating as I should be, but I'm walking the treadmill (at 2 for an hour, but I get on and finish) I am doing beginners yoga that I did when I was twelve! I'm trying to take it day by day and just be proud of my daily accomplishments, rather than looking into the future! This time it will stick, because it's what god wants, because I feel better, andaybe most importantly because I need to teach my children! So that's my story and I'm sticking to it!