Lost Who I Am

LindsayLouise1

I have always known I have been larger. After joining the military I got down to about a size five and was thrilled. I met my husband, also military, and we got married and I received a medical discharge after a nasty fall destroyed my hips and I took too long to heal. Over the last six and a half years of marriage I have ballooned up to a size sixteen and have miserable for most of it. My husband appears oblivious to my issues, but now we are having fertility issues and I have pretty much lost all of my self confidence as a woman. I had dabbled with different diet approaches, but, I LOVE food! This last weekend I was out with a friend and she ran into an old high school buddy of hers. He took one look at me and in informed me that he thought I was eating too much food and that I was overweight and should consider dieting and eating different foods. I was shocked! I didn't know this man and had never had someone tell me I was fat right to my face within moments of meeting them. I was devastated, and in every way I still am. BUT, after a day or so to consider, I had to be honest with myself that while he was very rude, he was not wrong. I AM overweight and unhealthy. I am also miserable and I hate having to look at myself in a mirror. Those are not things people should be living with and that is not how I want to spend the rest of my life. So here goes nothing. I am embarking on a journey to find a healthy and happy me, whatever size I can get to that happens to be the happy me! I would love to add friends on here and build a support network! I am a firm believer that accountability is one of the best ways to stay true to something, so bring it on!

mcelrjus

"Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery." It looks like you are well on your way, self discipline, control and a good attitude will get you far.