Here ---again

idivadi

:blushing: its been a couple of months since I even tried to be accountable! My entry at that time said I was going to be more accountable and then I stopped counting.

I mean I actually felt that I did not count. That all other factors in my life could have first dibs on my energy and I if I could just survive then all would be ok. You all know the old story of family dramas and life situations that you allow to take your focus away from you... Thats what I did.

A few days ago in the middle of yet another crisis, I realized that as I was waiting for all the issues in my world to sort themselves out I was surviving and that it was not ok.

It is not ok to only survive! I count! Life will continue to swirl around me and I can use some of my precious energy on me.
I cannot control anything but my own actions and reactions. For a person with control issues that is a major admission.

So, I am back on this site. I am counting. I will be accountable. I will do more than survive---I will thrive!

LeanneGoingThin

Best of luck to you!